"People leave or change because they find something they like better. And me as well as you have to get used to that. It's not that I don't like my sister. It's that she found someone she liked better. So did Hunter and from what I can tell Brandon did to." I frowned at them and looked down at my hands
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"That's what you think? That they found someone better?" Zach asked my and I nodded. I felt tears "I'm so angry at myself, you know? I feel like no matter what I do it's wrong. I just feel so unloved." I said to them letting my tears run down my face.
"Calm down." Zach said putting his arm around me protectively. "I'm just so sick. Of feeling replaceable. Like I can just leave and that it would be okay and no one would even realize I was gone." I said stuffing my face in my hands.
"Do you know how many nights I wished someone would stay?" I asked him looking up from my hands. And guess who I saw yep Hunter and my sister holding hands laughing walking into the waiting room.
I just looked at my hands. Not wanting to feel like a piece of shit more then I already do. "Hey Sophia are you okay?" Kennedy asked once her and Hunter are in front of us. I looked up at there hands intertwined.
"I'm fine. That's what you want me to say right?" I asked them. "If you want the truth I'm not. I'm not okay. But that's not what you want to hear. You wanna hear me say I'm upset because you are in the hospital because of me. But I'm not." I said to them before standing up.
"Wait Sophia." She grabbed my hand I pulled away quickly. She looked down. "Why aren't you upset I hurt myself?" She asked me. I looked away knowing that the couple of cuts on her arm were just a way to get me to forgive her.
"You know when I had all those cuts on my body you didn't come to the hospital, Hunter." I said to him looking at the five cuts on my sisters arm. I looked back at Zach "See what I mean. Who knew my replacement was in front of me the whole time. No body ever asked me if I was okay. So all I could do was keep asking them and hope that one day they would ask me too"
"Oh please you barely hurt yourself." Kennedy said to me and I snapped my head in her direction. "You wouldn't know you weren't there. I had to get two pints of blood put into my body." I said squinting my eyes at her.
"You know what Zach the sad thing is that I tell myself I don't need anybody but the truth is they don't need me." I said looking at Zach and he grabbed my hand as the tears rolls down my face. "I'm sorry Sophia." Kennedy cried to me and Hunter pulled her in close.
I looked down. "But I never actually felt pain until I saw the way you look at her." I said to Hunter and he pulled away from her looking at me with sad eyes. "I don't understand. How can you look at me like it's nothing. Like i never meant anything to you. Like i was never in your life." I said and his eyes widened tears obviously brimming in them.
"Do you guys have a ride home?" I asked them and they nodded. I nodded and walked away still holding Zachs hand Ariel following behind us.
Once we got into the car I looked at Zach who had shot gun. "You told me to forgive her and I will just not right now." I told him and he nodded.
