Friendship. It's a funny word what does it mean can someone tell me. I seem to always be the problem in friendships I always make people leave am I that worthless that pathetic nobody can stand to be my friend anymore. Maybe it's not how worthless I am maybe I'm not pathetic but it sure seems like I am. I think why not end it all everyone that said they cared lied they want me to think I'm priceless they want me to think I'm not pathetic just so they can turn around and make me feel 10 times worse. Maybe I should end my life nobody will release I'm gone. Everything and everyone will say "I am not sure where she is but I'm happy she is gone." Right now death looks better then life because my friends are no longer my friends and I say I'm okay with it but I'm not it's one of my many lies I lie because if I don't things get worse and that's something I can't handle in my life went from great to okay to just God take me away. Why do you keep me here I just screw up lives I make everyone miserable people say I help that I'm the light ok no there life but what they don't realize when they lest expect it I most likely will end up stabing them in the back I mean that's obviously what I do. Right?
