Something i cant explain. (A Janiel fanfiction)

Harsh tomes

*note* thankyou all for encouraging me to write again, i want to make sure you guys are happy as well and that with you commenting and voting makes me happy and keeps my spirit up with this story.

Warning- slightly harsh words and mention of cutting. If you are sensitive i suggest you dont read. I will let you know when that part starts

Daniels POV

Its been at least two weeks now since ive talked to Joey, hopefully he doesnt hate me forever. I still cant believe myself for telling him, im so stupid, i should have waited. Or not even told him...

The usual still happens, im miserable all the time, i never talk to anyone because they probably think im a total jerk for dissing off Joey. So it seems. And i still sit alone at lunch waiting for him to come up to me and we can just talk like we used to and just have fun.

My mom wonders why i dont hang out with him anymore, i keep telling her we just had a disagreement, but she doesnt believe me. She thinks that Joey did something mean to me, but i keep telling her no because it was all my fault.

The next day

Same as usual im sitting by myself at lunch, but i keep catching myself starring at all the other kids, which i dont usually do. I see these girls in particular laughing and looking my way. There probably making fun of me, but whatever, im used to it. I see one of the girls get up and head my way, i keep my head down because i dont want them noticing me. As i glace up she sits down infront of me.

"Hi im Stacey, are you Daniel?"

"Yeah im Daniel, why are you here" i say in a sad tone.

"Jezz i just came to say hi" she said offended.

"But no one ever talks to me, why are you here?"

"Well, we always see you sitting alone and we want to know why, cause you used to hang out with that Joey kid right?

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"Yeah i hung out with him but we had a disagreement so we dont anymore"

"Well what happened?" She asked

"Um just a personal thing, i dont want to talk about it"

"Is it cause your a fag" she says in a mean tone.

"Um no, we just had a disagreement" i said more in a harsh tone.

"Does he not care about you because you told him you were a faggg"

"I-im not a fag, stop calling me that!" 

"Fuck you fag, i mean why dont you fuck him fag" she said as she got up and left.

These stupid people, i should have never told Joey i was gay, i shouldnt have done it, i wish nobody ever saw me. In my old school i was bullied alot, so that was nothing new. People can be so terrible and i dont understamd why.

I practically ran home after school, i couldnt deal with this right now. I felt a bad urge to do something, and i knew what. I went to the kitchen got a decent knife, ran to the bathroom. This is the first time ive every done something like this. I took the knife to my rist and started cutting, i couldnt hold it back i felt so good, yet so bad.

Later

I patched up my wounds and put on a sweater, i couldnt handle it, they got to me, they all got to me. I just broke down and started sobbing.

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I heard the door open downstairs and hear my mom saying hello. She said she brought home dinner. 

What if she see's what i did, what if she knows, what if she does something bad to me for doing this.

As i walk downstairs to greet her, i pull down my sweater sleeves down so she doesnt see.

"I brought chicken, do you want some?" She said happily.

"Sure" i said

"Well come sit down were eating now"

I obeyed her and sat down.

"So how was your day honey?"

"Decent" i said.

"Why what happened?"

"I-im sorry i cant talk about it right now" i said getting up and going to my room.

"Daniel come back and sit down, now" she said harshly.

"NO" i screamed in tears.

Its all to much for me to handle.

WELCOME BACK EVERYONE. Hello im guessing your surprised by this update. Well im back, and i hope you enjoyed this chapter.

Byeee