Never Enough (Completed)

~7~

Nyx's Point Of View:

   I woke up next to Ryan, he was sleeping peacefully. I sighed softly, remembering the passionate night I shared with him. He was snoring softly, with his arm wrapped around me gently. I threw off his arm and grab the sheet around my pale tattooed body, I threw open my balcony doors as the soft ocean breeze was blowing in.

  I sigh and inhale the sweet air around me, while I keep holding onto the sheets, as I heard footsteps behind me and arms wrap around me. His lips gently kiss my neck. "Mm Ryan!" I gasp. He spins me around and places a passionate kiss on my lips. I stare at him. "Ryan last night..." I trail off. "Was amazing and perfect." He says, I sigh and look at him.

  He was right, but it was wrong. "It was perfect and amazing, but it's wrong! You're my warrior and I'm your priestess! How will it work?" I ask him, while I step out of his arms and sigh deeply.
I heard him take a deep breath, as I heard him shuffle to get dressed like he was upset. "I understand last night was a mistake, I get it. How could I be stupid to think we could ever happen!" Ryan yells. "Ryan please listen!" I plead.

  "No Nyx!" He says and unlocks my door and storms out. I take a deep breath, as I felt tears stream down my face. I heard my bedroom door open and Sophia tells me that my bath is ready, I nod emotionless, I walk toward my closet and pick out my white plunging neckline dress which was floor sweeping and my silver spiral earrings with my silver gladiator sandals.

   I walk into the bathroom and I strip out of my dressing gown and step into the bath while I lean against it. Sophia left me alone to my thoughts, I felt the tears stream down my face again. I was sobbing. Why did I care about Ryan so much? I had a lot of warriors and why did I feel so connected to him?

'Ah my daughter, don't cry! Ryan loves you very much and don't despair! You'll find your way back to each other!' I sigh deeply and take a deep breath, lower myself into the water. The whole world was silent, only the beating off my heart, as bubbles escaped my mouth. As I gasp, and sit up gasping for air.

  "Priestess are you done?" Sophia asks me and I nod. I wrap my white towel around me, I remember the first kiss I shared with Ryan in here. I stayed silent, as I dry myself off and dress in my beige strapless lace bra and underwear. I step into my dress and Sophia began zipping up the back.

  "Your father is waiting for me in the grand hall and wants to dine with you." She says, as I slip on my silver gladiator sandals and strap them on. Sophia pulls my hair up in a Grecian braid, I add winged eyeliner and burgundy wine lipstick. I put in my silver spiral earrings, a silver coin necklace. While I walk out of the room, I saw Balz waiting for me.

  Over the time together, we've gotten close. I view him as my older brother, I sigh heavily. "You sigh as if the whole weight of the world is on your shoulders." He says, while I walk beside him. "Nothing Balz, it's just I'm feeling sad this morning." I whisper, while keeping my head down and walking toward the grand hall.

  "Was it warrior Sitkowski?" He asks me. "No it wasn't him, he's perfect in every single. And my feelings for him." I whisper, "You love him?" He asks me. I stay silent.
While I walk into the grand hall, as he mouths, that we would talk later. I saw Ryan standing near the corner, I thought that I would faint and stop breathing. "Ah Nyx there you are my dear!" My father says, I could feel Ryan's eyes piercing my soul.

  I took a seat on the wooden black chair and ate with him. "I'm leaving to go to Milan and meet with other high priests." My father says and I nod. "Alright!" I say with a sigh.
"I wanted to say I'm proud of you, you were amazing at the cleansing ritual last night." He says and I nod. "Is something troubling you my child?" He asks me. "Father, when you love someone can you ever get over the hurt you feel? And love them regardless it's forbidden?" I ask. "Ah I remember when I was a warrior and your mother a high priestess, we both fell in love deeply, my devotion was her!" He says so lovingly. I look at Ryan and he looks at me without emotion. He hates me.

   My father left for his journey, he would be gone two months. My soul was tearing me apart. My soul connected to Ryan, I had to pray to my Goddess. I briskly rush down the hallway and let my dress trail around me, many warriors greeting me. I got to the garden, as I took off my sandals and threw them behind me. The cool grass felt good beneath my feet, the rain was starting.

  I walk into the black gazebo and up the marble steps and I collapse on my knees and start praying. I disappear from this world and see my Goddess.

  "My child raise!" Alya says as she walks toward me in her silver dress, her long silver hair cascading down her back. "What troubles you?" She asks. "Everything priestess! My love for Ryan and my mother." I whisper. She held her hand out to me, and wipes away my tears. "You're strong my child, your mother chose this path for you and you will make me proud! As well as your mother." She says.

  "Warrior Sitkowski loves you and you'll find your way to each other, give your hearts to connect." She says, while I sigh. "Be safe my daughter, remember I'm always with you!" She says.

  I gasp and snap back into reality and raise up feeling better. "Thank you Goddess." I said, the rain was about to start, I dash out of the gazebo and toward the place, as I ran toward the marble pillar it poured. "Priestess?" I heard behind me, I saw a soaking wet Ryan approach me. "Warrior Sitkowski!" I say while I cross my fist over my heart while returning the gesture.

  "Priestess Nyx!" He says with passion and greets. "Are you alright?" He asks. "I'm alright warrior, I must go and tend to some things." I say simply. I walk away from him.
It was midnight and I try to sleep, but I couldn't. All I could think about was Ryan. Our lustful and passionate night, did he care for me? I hoped he would. My bed felt empty without him, last night we made love. I had to avoid him with all my strength.

   Sophia changed the bed sheet, but his pillow smelt like Ryan. As I held the pillow and hugged it while sleeping.

My love, my warrior and protector.