Jermaine's mother in the media ☺️
"I got her life in my grip, she holding tight to my wrist
She screaming: "Don't let me slip"
She see the tears in my eyes, I see the fear on her lips
True when I told you: "You the only reason why I don't flip and go insane"
Jermaine's POV
The next morning I woke up to my father banging on my room door. I looked at my alarm that Read 11:42 A.M and jumped up thinking I was late for school before I realized today was Saturday. I rubbed my eyes, sleepily walked over to the door and unlocked it. "What" I asked. He stood there with wholes in his shirt, in his boxers swaying from side to side "Your mother" he slurred out handing me a cell phone. I snatched the phone from him my heart beating fast at what I was about to hear. I hadn't spoken to my mother in years and now she's contacting me over the phone. What was I gonna say ? What did she want ? Why did she leave me ? All thoughts that crossed my mind before I put the phone to my ear "Hello" I said my voice cracking "Jermaine?" she spoke sounding like she was on the verge of tears. "Ma? " I questioned with tears in my eyes. This was my first time hearing my mothers voice since I was 14 years old. "Jermaine I miss you so much Baby" she stated before I heard her bust out in tears, the sound of her crying was so familiar to my ears bringing back memories of when he made her cry every single day. I couldn't speak as all of the memories came flooding back to me. Memories of blood everywhere, the bruises that scarred our skin, the nights I thought about ending it all because I couldn't do anything to protect her from blows to the face when he forced himself on her after coming home from the bar or long nights of cheating. I remembered it all and I just sat there staring at the wall for what seemed like decades while my mother cried in my ear. For a while I was angry at her too. Why did she let him take me ? Did she not care about me ? I was so curious. My mind flooded with questions and thoughts that needed to be answered. I was so angry the tears wouldn't stop rolling down my face, I was panting, my leg was shaking and my left fist was balled up so tight the blood was pouring out of the palm of my hand from my nails digging in my skin. "Why did you let him take me ma ?" I croaked out my voice barely above a whisper. "I'm so sorry Baby" Sorry ? 4 years of us not being together and him beating me Everytime he got drunk, struggling until the time I was 17 ,so used to not having meals or clean clothes. Thinking about her and looking at our pictures every day ?, and all she had to say was that she was "Sorry ".
I needed time to take this all in. "I'll talk to you later ma" I spoke "Jermaine please don't go"
"YOU LEFT ME !" I yelled into the phone "YOU DIDNT ASK ME NOT TO GO WHEN I WAS 14 AND YOU LET HIM DRAG ME OUT RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOUR EYES. YOU DIDNT EVEN CARE !" I snapped whipping my face with my arm dramatically. I hung up the phone , threw it across the room and punched the glass that connected to my dresser "Fuck" I shouted I had realize what I just said. Me and my mother always depended on Each other to be strong during those tough times. I just feel like it was so much more she could've did to protect me and a part of me hated her for it but I missed my mother so much. I layed back on my bed staring at the ceiling I felt drained and I had just woken up. I grabbed my phone off of the nightstand by my bed getting blood on it but I didn't care. I looked to see that Melody Had blew me up ;
Melody😍☺💖️: J I miss you 😔 9:24
Melody😍☺💖️: if you don't Wake up I'm gonna cry 🙄. 10:32
Melody😍☺💖💖️: If you wake up, I'll do some things later that would make you really happy ☺️. 11:00
Melody😍☺💖️: I brought breakfast do you want some 11:35
I thought about it and me being Embrassed by my living situation but if Melody really cared about me she wouldn't care about that she would love me for who I am so I shot her a quick text telling her yes I wanted breakfast with my address and asked if her offer from earlier still stands since I was awake. I quickly hopped in the shower and put on something comfortable before looking at my phone to see that melody had text me that she was outside I went downstairs to open the door and saw her sitting in the car. When she saw me she got out and walked up to me kissing my lips she handed me my bag of food and followed me upstairs to my room. I sat down on my bed and began eating the pancakes, sausage and egg Breakfast she had gotten me from McDonalds before I looked up and saw Melody staring at me. "What" I asked in an annoyed voice "What happened ?" She asked looking around my trashed room with glass all over. I completely forgot about that. I stopped eating and put my head down completely losing my appetite, she reminded of the situation that had just token Place. "What's wrong ?" She asked sitting down next to me, concern written all over her face. I remained silent and she took my hand in hers holding it on her lap. She examined my hands. "Jermaine" she said in a warning tone before standing in front of me. "My mother called " I kept my head down fiddling with my hands not knowing how to put everything I had to say in words "That's Good right ? You miss her" she Reminded. I shook my head "She let him take me" I told Melody not making eye contact "Who" melody Questioned "My father " I stated quietly she nodded understanding and came closer to me standing in between my legs I laid my head on her chest I couldn't hold back the tears anymore. They came spilling out and I felt so comfortable crying on Melodys Chest I never thought I would cry in front of a girl before. She just hugged my head closer to her chest and told me that it would be ok and for once in a long time I felt like everything would actually be ok. It's like Melody healed all my pain and worry. I broke down some more "I hate her melody" I spoke with my head still in her chest. Gripping the sides of her waist while I cried like a little girl "You don't mean that" she said rubbing my back "you have to give her a chance Jermaine, can you do that for me ?" She asked. I nodded my head . She lifted my head from my chin so I was looking up at her. I probably looked so weak. Melody dried my tears with her thumbs and kissed my lips both of her hands on each side of my face. "You have to call her back and ask her if she wants to have dinner "Melody spoke "I don't think "she wants to see my Dad" I said shaking my head. "That's fine" "we can have dinner at my place or go to a restaurant" I smiled at melody looking deep into her eyes like I could read her soul "I love you" I spoke. She smiled and pecked my lips "I love you too " She spoke before pulling out her food to eat.
