The Fire That Burns Within

Drowning in my Tears

I woke up by someone nudging my shoulder. "What, who's there" I slammed my fist into something hard "OW, It's me Rose, don't fucking punch me" he rubbed his arm as my eyes adjusted to the dark.

"Well than you shouldn't stand in the way of my fist" I replied and I saw him smile.

"I found the tests but I had no idea which one to chose so I just bought them all" he showed me a plastic bag and in it where all kinds of pregnancy tests.

"Uhm did you rob the store or something?"

"Well that depends on how you look at it."

"Is there another way to look at it cause from my point of view it's pretty bad Noel" I couldn't believe he'd do that, well yes I could I mean he did kidnap me but I didn't think he'd rob a store for me.

He looked at me agitatedly.

"I don't care if you think it's bad Rose, I did what was necessary" he dumped the bag on the floor and walked out the door. I regretted what I'd said, he was right of course but for a moment I forgot in what kind of situation we're in.

I took one of the tests and waited for the answer, it's taking forever. After 5 minutes I could see a symbol starting to appear, I did a quiet prayer but it didn't help, the test was positive.

I wanted to be absolutely sure so after 10 tests all of them showing a positive result I was finally convinced that I was for sure pregnant.

I'm totally screwed now I thought as I paced the room.

Footsteps above me indicated that Noel was probably doing exactly the same thing. After a while he came down and I knew it was time again. "Please Noel, could I have a piece of bread first, I'm starving" he nodded and ran to the kitchen.

He came down holding a couple of slices white bread and a bag. "What's that for" I asked, "well Ramos wouldn't like it if you arrived covered in puke, that might get you in even more trouble, so I got you this" he held up the bag and gave it to me. He put the bread in my other hand, grabbed the blindfold and put it on. The whole ride I nibbled on the bread, I didn't make the same mistake of eating it all in one go again, and my stomach accepted it.

The two hours were not long enough and I wanted more time to try and think of a strategy but time always stays the same and we arrived at the mansion.

Noel guided me to the garden, the spring had gone and the summer was now in full swing. I used to love the sunshine but now it just felt numb. "Ah my beautiful Rosalina" I hated it when people pronounced my name wrong and my reaction was automatic "it's Roselyn" I whispered. Shit I shouldn't have said that.

Ramos approached and I tried to step back only to bump into Noel. My blindfold was roughly pulled of and I stared right in the source of my deepest hate. "What's that my dear" he smiled viciously "nothing" I lied. His hand hit my face hard "I ask you again, what did you say" he liked it when I challenged him, it gave him more reasons to hurt me. "You pronounced my name wrong, it's Roselyn" I answered him. This landed me another punch, "I decide how I pronounce your name" he said.

I stood there trembling with anger but I kept quiet. "Now I have something for you to see" he announced as he motioned to a chair which was pointed at a table with a laptop. Noel guided me to the seat. Ramos pushed some buttons and a video popped up. "Hold her head so she has to see" he ordered Noel and he did so.

The video showed Joe, he was sitting in a chair as a guy in a suit came in. "Hello sir, I will do your evaluation today" he grabbed a notepad and started writing although I couldn't see what. I had a bad feeling about this but I had to keep watching, I needed to know. "Could you tell me your name?" the guy asked Joe. "I don't remember" Joe answered him. Panic started bubbling up inside me. "Do you know where you are?" He asked but Joe just shook his head. "Please stop" I begged. "Do you remember if you have family members?" The guy asked Joe. He shook his head again. My heart broke and I sobbed. I looked up and stared at Ramos, he smiled and said "they say that his condition is getting worse by the day, he won't have long" the smile on his face made me explode

"YOU BASTARD!" I screamed at him. I stood up to try and fight him but Noel quickly locked me in his arms. I kicked and screamed and tried to get out of his arms but they didn't falter. Ramos doesn't look impressed. "I thought by now that you would've learned to control yourself" he walked over to one of his goons. They spoke with hushed voices but his vicious expression told me that I was in deep trouble. Noel noticed it to, his grip on me was not as tight and felt more like a protective one. I stopped kicking and just sobbed, the weight of my emotions too much for me. Ramos and the guy he spoke to came back. The guy took me from Noel safe arms and fear surrounded me.

"Sit her down and this time make sure she stays seated" Ramos commanded him.

Noel walked up to Ramos "Sir I could spare you the trouble and punish her at the cabin" he says trying to get me back to safety. "No thank you Noel, it's been way to long since I had some entertainment" Ramos says walking up to me. In his hands are a towel and a big bottle of water, they don't look threatening to me but his smile says it all. "please, I'm sorry, I'll behave" I tried, it doesn't have any effect. "You're to late now my dear, besides it's been way to long since I heard you scream" he pulls the towel over my face as the goon pours water over it.

I try to breath but all I get is water, it feels like I'm drowning and I fight for air. Finally he takes of the towel and I gasp for air. Just as I start to catch my breath the towel is back on my face and water drowns out my screams. 

Dark spots appear but just as I seem to go under the towel is pulled away again. I choke and gushes of water come out of my mouth as I hear Ramos and his goons laugh. I try to scream while they put the towel over my face again and again. Finally my voice is gone and my body gives up, I let the darkness consume me and for a moment it actually feels peaceful.