Hating The Truth (Justin Bieber story) [loving the lie sequel]

"Asleep at the wheel huh?"

Okay, so I'm pretty fed up. I'm seriously going to stop uploading if all my notifications are the same people adding to their library, yeah you may have just done it, not even fanned me huh? no vote? no? no comment to help? oh okay. NO ITS NOT OKAY. so many people, and I mean SO many add to their reading list but my book's are just sat here with no recognition or feedback :(  

so yeah it bugs me, a lot. 

anywhooo, on a lighter note, happy new year sweeties, and I've decided, in the new year, I shall be more sociable and I'm starting here! well at the bottom of the page, so you don't forget, so yeah please be nice? :(

chapter 4

Mine and Justin's hands intertwined as we both rested our elbows on the blue shiny table of the local coy cafe. I looked down at my empty mug and then at justin's cleaned plate. We'd been sat here for half an hour and things were only getting worse. Justin looked into my eyes and I tried not to cry, just yet. I'm saving it for later. He lent closer as he whispered into my ear. "we're almost done now". I pretended to look devastated by what he'd just said but I didn't have to pretend too much because part of me was. "you should start crying now" he said under his breath. So I did , I let out silent tears at first then began to sob more obviously "this good enough for you?" I said between sobs. I looked down at the table as Justin let go of my hand and placed both his hands under the table. "I'm gonna walk out now , I'll text you later" I nodded and justin stood up and left. I put my head in my hands and began to cry more obviously.

Justin kept his upset face on as he walked out of the deserted cafe past the crowds of paparazzi into the back of a black land rover.

I waited a minute then walked out into the sea of paparazzi to be swarmed with questions. I gave no answers and just continued walking till I finally got into the front of my mini. As I drove home I wondered why I'd let myself get into this mess. Why I'd agreed to this whole scheme. It was 2 months ago and at the time the plan had no glitches or floors. But now I think it over this was bound to happen. I was bound to get tangled in with him and now it was over I couldn't help but realise all the warnings I had been given, and ignored, were so accurate. But is it Justin? Is it me? Is it boys in general?

"Cassie?" Chaz asked as he knocked on my car window. I jumped at his voice and looked around and realised it was dark outside. I undid my seat belt, opened the door and stumbled out.  

"I erm fell asleep." I said nervously as I tried to sort out my hair.  

"Asleep at the wheel huh?" Chaz laughed sweetly. I stopped and looked at him smiling sincerely.  

"I better go." I said as I locked my car in a fumble.  

"Cassie?" Chaz asked.  

"yeah?" I said as I looked everywhere but in Chaz's eyes.  

"I'm here, For you." he sighed breathing deeply.  

"thanks but I can't do this right now." I gushed as I felt my temperate rise and my head began to pound.  

"I just want you to know its okay. I'm here." Chaz began explaining but my stomach was grumbling and churning.  

"thanks but-" I began to interject and leave but Chaz stopped me again. 

"No No, I heard what happened and I realise you're-" Chaz said as he reached for my hand and my stomach clenched tightly.  

"Chaz I'm going to-" be sick. And I was, all over Chaz.  

"I'm so sorry!" I gushed as I tried to pull myself away from Chaz, but he grabbed me and held me up, grabbed my bag and walked me into my house.  

"I think I better-" I said but sick filled my mouth so I launched myself into the downstairs bathroom and continued to throw up in the toilet.  

"you finished?" Chaz asked from round the side of the door.  

"yeah, erm pass me my bag?" I asked as I wiped my mouth with tissue.  

"one sec." Chaz smiled as he reached for my bag but ended up knocking it over spilling the contents onto my bathroom floor and revealing my morning after pills.  

"oh." Chaz said as I clambered to put everything back in my bag.  

"mints, there they are." I sighed as I put a mint in my mouth and tried to pretend nothing had happened. 

"how long have you been taking those Cas?" Chaz asked in a concerned tone.  

"A couple days." I shrugged.  

"And how long have you been feeling ill?" he said eyeing me suspiciously.  

"well I-" began to lie but his eyes triggered the truth. "Since a few hours after I took them." I sighed.  

"Do you think it could be these?" He said as he pulled out the box.  

"It's probably just a side effect." I tried to shrug him off. He began reading the box.  

"If vomiting and dizziness occurs immediately stop usage of product and seek medical advice." he read out.  

"I had a chicken sandwich earlier and I don't think it was cooked properly, it's probably just tha-" I tried to explain but Chaz was having non of it.  

"I'm not stupid." he pleaded.  

"but what if I'm... Pregnant." I sighed, Chaz was the last person I wanted to talk to about this, in all honestly I thought he was the last person who wanted to talk to me at all.  

"then you can abort later or something, you could be making yourself seriously ill from the tablets." Chaz said biting his lip. I breathed deeply and prepared myself for what I was about to say.  

"I know you mean well Chaz, but.. I can't risk it. I'd rather be ill for a week with these than have to have an abortion." I hesitated to say.  

"right." Chaz said calmly as he stood up.  

"that's it?" I blurted without thinking.  

"well we're just friends Cass, I can't tell you what to do. I'll be here what ever you choose but that's the point, it's your choice. Anyway I'm going home now, it's late." And with that he stood up and walked out, leaving a sting in my eyes as I realised we'd never be the same again.

helloo again, yeah I said I'd do this and if you don't know what I'm talking about because you skipped my talky bit at the top then go back and read it! no excuses for today! anyways, I'd really like to get to know my fans and vise verse so I'm starting it off leaving it to you! 

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