DECISIONS | by sunshineberry

Part9

Me: (sighs sits down)look guys I love you both equally even though I kissed Zayn and I talked to Niall for 5-6 hours in one day but that doesn't make any of you higher. You both are equal to me I love you both. And I don't want you two best friends to fall apart bec of me. I'm going to be honest I love you both not as brothers but as in boyfriends. I feel love in between us but if you put yourself in my shoes you would see how hard it is for me to deal with life. I hate to break it to u guys but my ish best friend Tasha likes boys and she likes you guys I mean she likes every boy in the world as in not brother but love. I don't like that because she might be cheating on Harry as she always does. She has had 9 boyfriends and she broke up with all of them bec She was caught cheating and now Harry is the 10th one. So even if I date one if you I wouldn't like my ish best friend to like u. (Crying)
Zayn: so u mean you can't date any of us?
Me: no I don't mean that I just mean it's hard for me to chose!My life is getting harder! Whatever happens I'm the blame! But everybody likes me and then I have to chose but then the other one is upset all bec do me!!!!!!!!!!

I started crying and spilling out my problem. Zayn hugged me from one side and Niall from one. I left I went home. I was sad all day I didn't eat food everybody was happy Elly was dating Liam. Elly is the only person who's been there for. She has been in my shoes she knows what I go through. And I just need her so bad right now.