"Shh, shh," I shush Copeland quietly, her wails finally starting to dim down. "Daddy's here," I whisper, holding her closely to my chest. I quietly sing a lullaby, hating to see her in such distress. She used to hardly cry, but as she's getting older, she's beginning to have more crying fits.
As I place her back in her crib, she makes a slight gurgling noise. I smile slightly and shut her lamp off, leaving the room in total darkness, and turning around to go back to bed. I stare at the floor as I walk and manage to bump into something - better yet, someone. I jump slightly in surprise and gasp, stepping back. "Kellin?" Vic's voice asks.
"Vic?" I ask in return. I hear him chuckle and feel him reach out slightly, grabbing my arm. "What are you doing?" I question in a whisper. In a second, I feel his lips press loosely against mine and my heart beats quickly in my chest. And as that happens, I feel his tongue slide into my mouth and I open my eyes in surprise. I mean, not like I'm able to see anything, but he really caught me off guard.
We can't do this here, and especially not right now! That is, if this is going where I think it is... He slowly pulls his lips away from mine, the only thing I'm able to see is the whites of his eyes, gray in the darkness. "What was that for?" I ask, the question coming out even quieter than I was planning. I feel his hand gently run over my shoulder and I shudder slightly, remembering that I'm hardly wearing anything. And neither is Vic...
Oh, God, what am I even insinuating?! I'm not ready for something like this! I know Vic is definitely the 'man' in our relationship, the top. And I've never done anything in the situation where I'm not a top, and I can just feel that that's where this is going... Fuck, I can't just turn him down, but I can't just, do it. I mean, that would be our first time doing anything close to sexual other than kissing, and I'm really not ready...
He still doesn't reply to my question, though, instead, he just continues to stare into my eyes. And I definitely feel something, but, like I said before, the rest of me isn't caught up to that small feeling. "Vic, I-" he cuts me off by placing his lips back on mine, roughly this time. Oh, shit.
I find him somehow lightly guiding my body back to our room. His chest brushes roughly against mine, which doesn't make this situation any simpler. Then, his tongue finds its way back into my mouth, and I just can't help but kiss him back, even if it is leading him on. I haven't done something like this in a little over two years, and still technically being a hormonal teenager, I have needs. Fuck, this is exactly why I can't be put in situations like this.
I feel the back of my knees bump against our bed, causing our slow walking motion to stop. Vic's lightly calloused fingers slide up my torso and arms, causing me to shiver again, until he reaches the top of my shoulders. To stop our little position from being too awkward, I place my hands slightly above his hips. Not like that lasts for very long, because pretty soon he's soundlessly pushing me down onto the bed, our lips quickly breaking apart in one swift gesture.
"Vic," I whisper, almost without any of my voice being used with how quiet I am. He doesn't allow me to continue, though, instead finding a way to make this even worse for my hormonal side by having our crotches practically brushing against each other while he bites at my neck. Then I make it worse for myself by letting a small moan escape my lips. Fuck, I can't do this, and I need to stop leading him on like that! I feel him lift his head off my neck, and I just know he's staring at me.
"Oh, my God, Kellin," he finally says something, using a hushed tone. I feel my face heat up, but I don't even attempt to say anything, knowing he'll undoubtedly just cut me off. "That was so hot," he continues before I feel his tongue softly brushing against a new sore spot on my neck. He breaks away from me again and lifts my legs up, folding the lower part of them across his back and over his hips. Well, that certainly didn't make anything better.
I keep my eyes glued shut, actually trying to hold back more moans. Thank god Vic sits himself back up for a moment, giving me a chance to calm down. I hitch my breath when his hand brushes up my thigh and towards my hips, and I manage to grab his hand, stopping him. "Vic, I'm not ready for this," I finally get out.
He really sits back now, and I reach over to the nightstand on my side of the bed, turning the lamp on. I see a confused expression on his face and I can't help but feel bad. I mean, he was really going for it there, and I just completely turned him down. "What?" he asks. "Why?"
"I'm not ready for my first time..." I say quietly. His confused expression only manages to seem even more apparent.
"You have a biological daughter, Kellin. This can't be your first time doing this," he replies. I bite my lip and lower my legs pulling him slightly closer to me. "Unless she was like, transferred without intercourse, but I doubt that," he continues.
"No, I mean, I've never-" I cut myself off, suddenly embarrassed. "I've never bottomed before, and I know you're definitely not a bottom," I explain, my face burning from embarrassment. His eyes widen slightly and I look away, crossing my legs so that I'm sitting cross-legged.
"Oh, I, uh, didn't know that..." he replies, biting his lip slightly. "Uh, I'm really sorry." I look back into his eyes again, shaking my head shamefully.
"You shouldn't be apologizing, I should. I kind of led you on and that wasn't fair," I say. "I'm also sorry, because you're probably going to have an, uh, problem for the rest of the night," I add. He lightly chuckles. I feel his hand reach out and grab mine.
"It's fine, at least I didn't get to do anything drastic that you didn't want," he says, shrugging. I nod, smiling appreciatively. "There is one thing you should still let me do, though, but only if you promise to be quiet." He bites his lip and his hand smoothly rubs my inner thigh again.
To put what happened simply: a secretive blowjob in the middle of the night from your boyfriend certainly isn't the worst thing in the world.
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The Babysitter ✯ Kellic
Fanfiction[Completed] Kellin Quinn is a high school senior with a one year old daughter he's no longer able to take care of. His father and step mother don't support him, the mother of his child left, and it seems as though there's nobody else willing to...
