SHE IS LOST

chapter 5

Zayn POV
Right now we are all at the Hospital trying to figure out what's going on with Kat's mother what I did was I paid for private room for Kat's mother because that way. You don't need to worry about paying for her treatment or whatever she needs because I talk to the doctor privately and said I wanted to pay for some of her cancer treatment the least I could do to help her survive this that woman's been through so much the doctor said no problem so the insurance can cover the rest because part of it was covered by insurance and part that wasn't I was going to pay the rest there's no way I was going to let cat be put through more than she was going through as it is her mother almost died because of her father luckily though the stab wounds were not that deep . She still needs to be in the hospital for 3 or 4 weeks and for two of those weeks she needs to be in an induced coma what are he'll probably

Zayn - hay Kat how you holding up

Kat - I'm holding up cute thing is that little Christopher keep sitting on my lap telling me that Nanny Johnsons going to be alright because he thinks of her like a grandmother that's what he calls her that he don't like me being said he calls me auntie and he called the other girls and he of course that's so close me Pamela and Jennifer really are how long would Cher course

Zayn - so I guess you could consider the three of them your sister is such an only child

Kat - yeah you could I kind of heard you this morning when you're downstairs recording that song you wrote it was pretty cool keep hearing the word she over it so I guess the song is called she

Zayn - yeah I kind of got the idea from watching you smoking cigarettes and you saying how you always felt like you're going crazy and stuff like that and how you felt like you just wanted to be loved and everything for some reason I couldn't shake that the song idea so I had to write it and next thing I knew I was recording it I didn't think I'd get in one take the but I did it

Kat - yeah it's a really good song and the way you're saying it is like it's generalized so nobody knows who actually wrote it about or if it's just generalized terms that's a pretty cool song and I can see why you want to do things your way now because Harry told me that management wouldn't let you put any of your songs on their albums Simon was okay with that but it was the rest of management

Zayn -ya Simon and Paul where totally okay with it and everything but it was just something I couldn't handle anymore when the rest of me and I would go crazy on me because of my faith and s*** that's when I realized that the way things are going with One Direction wasn't really going in the direction that I wanted to go and I have been a part of me is missing and being in the band I know I didn't want to be in the band in the first place but I made it work there's a lot of good points. I mean I had the boys to have a back and everything and then there was just some stuff about it that I couldn't quite grasp onto you know if there was a way I could have both worlds I would

Simon -( walking down the corridor of the hospital because he was there to get blood work and heard the boys were there helping up the girls or what was going on you overheard them talking and maybe there is a way he thought to himself that Zayn could have both worlds)

Zayn - hay Simon

Simon - I have an idea that you could probably have overalls just took to the souls that you're doing now do it your way let everybody see that side of you you go back to One Direction make the band complete again and then you guys involved more he pretty much and with what you been doing because you don't want to try to change too drastic for the directioners but grow as you're getting older and maybe put a bit R&B 5 and everything in there without the person stuff for the newer songs and sing the old songs like the other there might be a way we can work it all out but we won't bring you back just yet we'll bring you back after the Hiatus and everything that way it will be a surprise

Zayn - that just might work for me to have both worlds and yeah be cool to surprise directioners and everything with that because it would be really good to come back and be with the boys

Simon - okay so we're going to do is we're going to keep everything under wraps until after the hiatus so you were working on the  one after with them on the one that's after made in am because I think you wanted to surprise directioners was a big things

And with that I went sitting down as I was watching Kat and everyone else around here I could tell that the girls where so shook and it .was sweet watching Pamela and her little boy Christopher kept telling all the girls that is nanny Johnson was going to be ok because Christopher calls all the girls mother and Nanny and what ever there last name is .it cute and I could here Pamela talking with the girls and she keeps say how sometimes she feels like her and the girls keep looking in a rear view mirror and it's something that she's getting tired of doing I was looking over her shoulder trying to make sure her friends and family and a little boy is safe but she has to be strong and she have been the strongest one right now for Kat

Niall - hay what up

Zayn -I'm just worried about Kat mother because we know that is going to be putting that and just come up for a while and then I overheard the girls talking and stuff like that that's just crazy the girls but I've always had this tough life and Pamela keeps saying it almost she looks inside rear view mirror to keep an eye on everybody sometimes I feel like she goes to her being the friend that everybody else would she needs a friend too

Niall - ya I'm getting what you are saying Kat and the other girls think that she's going to get burned out if she can you stop trying to be super mother and making sure everyone's okay. Jennifer's strong one and it all so they can  protect Kat and that going to be good they wanted that but they need to look after  themselves as well

And I knew they when do feel that way and to tell you the truth I've got a feeling that I'm going to get a song idea from all these girls just thinking of him mention the word I got a feeling that's a song idea now and I think Kat going to be my menus celebrity leave here around and help those girls find someplace to live together safe and sound I thought to myself so I can probably help you more but so much to worry about because your a young mother getting by and you will do anything for anybody else before you let them do that for you so that's why we have a few on the Pamela is going to have burned out trying to help everybody

And I can tell that worry's  Kat and the others right now because she works 4 jobs and goes to UCLA and the other girls that are her roommates work two jobs so they can try to ease that burden to her a little spending on each of these girls that are posting scholarships to UCLA I think what I'm going to do though is help them all out and pay for the remainder of their tuition