I want to be your GIRLFRIEND.

because OF me...

It's been three years since I talked to my boyfriend, Luhan. I stopped talking to him at the time my best friend, Boa died. My best friend's death was also why I don't talk to Luhan anymore, it's not like he's the one that caused it to happen personally I blamed myself for that. If I didn't date Luhan then she wouldn't have died.

Luhan was my best friend's first crush. She suicided a few days after we started to dating. It scared me, so I started to avoid him. I felt guilty for all three years.

Luhan never cheated on me even though we don't talk anymore I knew he didn't, because my friends tell me. I don't talk to him anymore, it's like we're in a distance relationship.

One day I was watching the news and the breaking news was that they found out the truth about a young girl's suicided. That got me interested. Then my best friend's picture popped up it shocked me. I sat up stiff as a board as I listen to the news.

[BREAKING News]

The mystery behind this young girl, Boa death is that she was bullied in school so bad, that she committed suicided. She has left behind a video with her last words in it and it can be viewed on the website.

[End of BREAKING news]

I quickly hopped off my sofa, and ran into my bedroom grabbing my laptop. I typed in the news website then I clicked play on the video.

I waited for it to play.

I was do nervous I wasn't really breathing.

What is she going to say?

Is she going to blame me?

What if... *the video started to play*

Boa's beautiful face popped up. She was crying.

"By the time someone sees this I would have died..." There was short pause "I realize that all the people who love me would be devastated, but this is the best for me. I know that my best friend will think that it's her fault, but it's not I wish nothing but the best for her and her boyfriend. My last wish is that my best friend and her lover gets married, and forget about me."

I couldn't stand watching anymore. I can't believe that she would have said that. I thought that she hated me for taking away her first crush.

I deleted the tab with the video, and tried to calm down by checking my email. There was one new message in my inbox, it was from Luhan. I deleted it before I could read it. It's been a habit of mine since Boa died.

I did truly love him, but the impact of Boa was simply too big. I no longer felt guilty, because it wasn't my fault or Luhan's fault.

I have to fulfill Boa's last wish.

I say in front of my laptop for a whole hour, and thought about what to email him. I finally decided what to write to him.

"I love you."