The Last Shot For Wounded Hearts

Can't Take My Eyes Off You

I took a breath and headed back out to the balcony, as I approached the edge of it I stopped and stood there with his stupid phone in my hand. A stupid phone that only caused me problems. I looked at it and didn't even think it twice I threw it as far as my hand could reach. At least that's how it went in my head. "FUCK YOU!!" I screamed as I let out another shaky breath and looked out into the distance. I wish I could throw his phone and be over with everything, but I couldn't let go of the phone my hand was holding tight to it, maybe it was my heart more than my hand. My mind said do it just throw it, but I couldn't. But what I could do was imagine how good it felt if I had thrown it and it felt pretty damn amazing. At least that was the only good feeling I had, because other than that I just felt like a dumbass. "Well we all know you are one...I'm just glad you realized it." I sniffled and let out a small chuckle. "Was I talking out loud or when did you learn to read minds?" I asked throwing the phone to the balcony swing and heading inside. "I know I'm great but I don't have that talent yet.....you were talking to yourself out loud and uhmm you didn't hear me when I came in," Slim said holding a bag of ice to his face. "How much did you hear?" I asked concerned as I made my way to the bed nearest to the balcony. I got under the covers and started tearing up a bit in my hands. "I didn't hear much.....and if I did I don't remember. I promise I didn't even see you at the balcony, when I got here you were in bed already. In fact I just got here." Slim said as he went over and put his arm over my shoulder. He started rubbing my shoulder as I heard the ice shuffling inside the bag. "I'm sorry....," I said as I raised my head. "About?" He asked with a confused look. "About? Really, about everything that just happened a few....what hours ago. About your face......about being a dumbass for feeling this way." I said starting to tear up. "Don't you dare cry again, I'm over it and it's gettin pathetic now." He said getting up from my side and sitting right in front of me. " First of all, you're not a dumbass so stop calling yourself that. You're amazing you're a fuckin goddess for god's sake. You give yourself very little credit for what you are as a person Jessica. You're a nowhere near a dumbass. I'll tell you what you are though, a girl who is falling......god how can I say this without throwing up in my mouth. You're a girl that has a fear of loving and you're starting to fall for him." Slim said as he raised up my head. I started to wipe my tears and nodded. "How did you even know when to come back?" I asked trying to avoid talking about him at least for now. I stretched and got a tissue from the nightstand. "You think this is the first time we have gotten in a fight? Hell naww.....we've gotten in fights before and like 20 minutes later we're cool." I looked at him with what had to be a silly look cause he started laughing. "Who do you think told me to come upstairs cause you were gonna need someone to talk what you read through with." I wiped my nose and looked at him. Colson told him to come upstairs and talk it through with me, what the fuck. Does Colson have shit for a brain, never mind he probably doesn't even have a brain. "Are you fucking serious. I'm supposed to talk the note out with you? The fuck Am I even supposed to say." I said getting up from the bed and walking to the restroom. I locked the door and sat down on the floor. "Open the door Jessica! I thought you would be happy." I shook my head and headed over to the door to open it. As I opened the door I pushed Slim to the side. "Happy? Happy? The fuck why would I be happy about it. Ohhh yeah let me fuckin celebrate the fact that he wrote about how in lovvvee he is and he thinks it's not right to hook up. Which he already fuckin did, must I remind everyone I walked in on them fucking in plain sight!" Slim looked at me confused and stopped me from walking away. "Wait, what the hell do you mean?" I shook my arm out of his grip "Are you serious, Let me go get the damn phone so you can read it too." I said as I walked out and came back inside with the phone. "Here and read it out loud." I said handing him the phone. He took the phone and tried to reason with me. "Jessica just......why the hell you so mad?" I looked at him furiously and gave him a what the fuck look. "Have you read it? exactly so read it and then I'll tell you why the hell I'm mad." I said as I sat back on the bed. What the hell was wrong with these people. They got in a fight and he still sent him up here to talk me through a love note he wrote about Halsey. "The hell is wrong with you people." I said almost too loud for Slim to hear me but he just focused on the note.