The Last Shot For Wounded Hearts

Daydreamer

We got down and out of the plane always hand in hand and when we were about to enter the airport I couldn't make my mind up about if I should stop Colson and ask him about the I love you or if I should just continue and pretend like it never happened or should I just let it be. Then again I thought to myself you always miss the chances you don't take....so fuck it. I stopped Colson midway and made him look at me. "What's wrong babe?" Colson asked looking suddenly confused as to why I stopped him in the middle of the hallway. "Did you mean it?" I asked kind of embarrassed because I needed him to reassure me of something I knew he truly meant. I just couldn't believe that he actually said it. "I knew it, I knew you were gonna bring it up and yes, I mean it with all my heart Jessica......I truly love you." Colson said as he placed a hand under my chin. I couldn't contain my smile and answered back happily, "I love you too". I looked at him and placed my hands behind his neck as we were leaning for a kiss I felt something cold on my back. 

"AAAAAAAA!!" I screamed and jumped up from my seat. "Finally she's fuckin awake", I heard Slim saying as he laughed at me. I just glared at him and moved the wet hair away from my face. "Are you fucking kidding me, what the hell is wrong with you assholes. Was this shit really necessary? Wait.....where the hell am I?" I asked as I looked around and realized I was still at my party venue. "Uhmm....is she okay, do you think we should just drive her to the cabin, so she can rest? She looks pretty out of it", I heard Rook ask Slim as I just focused on my surroundings trying to figure out what the hell had just happened to me and why the hell wasn't I in Spain. "Yeah I think we should but......just wait till Colson gets finished talking to the cleaning crew and then we'll just leave. Cause he's the one that didn't drink tonight", Slim said as he turned around and looked for Colson. I felt water start dripping on my face and I decided to go over to the bar and get a few napkins to wipe my face. "Yeah you're going to need more than that", Rook said as he pointed at the napkins in my hands. I just glared at him and resumed drying my face and neck, well as much as I could. "I know you're mad but don't be. You left us no other choice. You wouldn't wake up at all. Trust us we tried almost everything and you were still there knocked out on the bar." Rook said as he approached me with his t shirt in his hand. "Here change into something dry. I had it on but I don't need it anymore. We're assholes....but we're assholes that care about you", he said handing it to me and then sitting next to me on the stool that was dry. "I....I just....It was all a dream...", I sadly said as I tried to wrap my head around things. "What was a dream?", Colson asked as he approached Slim, Rook, and I. I couldn't bare look at him and when I finally did I  immediately shook my head. Colson just smiled, "Okay then I won't ask if it was that bad haha", he said chuckling as he pointed at me. "Wait one more thing....why are you all wet, if I just got here?" He asked, I wasn't in the mood for his comments so I just rolled my eyes. I was about to respond but before I even had a chance to he started taking off his jacket. Just as he we was taking off his shirt I stopped him,"It's really not necessary, Rook let me borrow his." I said raising up the shirt so Colson could see it. He gave me a small glare and just nodded as he put his shirt back on and picked the jacket off the floor. "Tell you what then why don't you go get changed so we can leave the ballroom so they can clean up", Colson said as he pointed at a group of people picking up the area near the stage. "Then we can go home and I can make us some pancakes....cause I don't know about yall but I'm hella hungry, I'm almost starving." Colson said smiling towards all of us. Him bringing up the pancakes brought a chill up my spine about when we had the fight......wait that was in my dream meaning it never happened. I simply nodded to what he said but I didn't move, it had finally hit me like a ton of bricks it had all been a dream. He didn't sing to me, Grayson didn't show up....not that  it really mattered anyways. I liked him but I didn't need him to be back in my life, at least not now. Luke and I were still a thing. He didn't break up with me at all, to much of my surprise cause I was being an ass to him. I didn't have the fight with Colson, I didn't make up with him either because once again the fight never happened, and I didn't go to fuckin Paris or Spain. Most importantly he didn't tell me he loved me. I kept staring at Colson and didn't move a muscle. "Hey Jessie you okay?" Colson asked as he slowly moved Slim out the way so he could see me. I nodded my head and just turned and left to go get changed. No I'm not fine I thought, but what would change if I had told him that I wasn't. I heard them call after me but I didn't turn around. I was exhausted, I was humiliated,words can't even begin to cover what I felt at the moment. I knew it was to good to be true but there I go making up stupid scenarios. "Stupid stupid.....he doesn't love you....and if he does he's too fuckin proud to admit it. And you're over here dreaming of what could be......dumbass" I said to myself as tapped my hand against the wall.  I walked a little bit more as I sniffled and finally found the bathroom. As soon as I walked into a stall tears threatened my eyes. "No stop that this damn instant.....you're not gonna fuckin cry. You're no little bitch......you're tough." I said to myself as I took of my shirt and quickly touched my shorts which thank god that my shorts didn't get wet at all. I quickly changed into Rook's shirt and threw the top of the costume away. I didn't need any reminders of this damn night I thought as I headed back out. I walked slowly maybe a bit to slow because Rook went over to me and smiled and walked back to Slim and Colson around three times. Which I'm not going to lie it kind of made me laugh.
I kept on walking with my head low until I got to where Slim, Rook, and Colson were. "I'm sorry for what we did girl I really am. But you gotta understand you wouldn't wake up." Slim said as he hugged me. Colson cleared his throat and Slim pulled away from me. Which I found really weird because Slim usually didn't pull away from a hug. I looked at Colson and he just smiled at me and looked weirdly at my shirt and then back at me. I tried to avoid his gaze and turned to look at Slim, "So when exactly did I pass out?" I asked as Rook got up and stood next to Colson. "Was it before the performance?" Slim turned to look at Rook. Rook nodded but then shook his head saying no and started thinking. "Yes....wait no it was after Colson stepped down the stage. Cause Colson made his way over here and she was like I knew it and that was it she was gone. Remember now Slim" Rook said as he looked at Colson and Slim. Colson just chuckled and pretended to look sad , "You slept after my performance? I feel really insulted right now.....the fact that I sang that song for you, cause you're always saying I should do something different." Colson said as he shook his head playfully and smacked me on the back of my head. "I......I guess I was tired....but why would I scream I know it?", I asked out loud as I fixed myself back up on the stool. "It will eventually come back to me. I guess I will know what I meant later on. Anyways I probably slept after it, but I did hear it. So that's essentially what counts." As soon as I finished saying that all three of them looked at each other and started laughing. "You probably didn't even fuckin hear it Jessie", Rook said chuckling. "It's Jessica....not Jessie." Colson corrected him. Rook gave him an ugly look and just raised his hands up, "You just called her Jessie man.....you know what whatever," he said walking away. "Rook...", I called out to him but Colson cut in. "Let him go and kick around some trash.....he's being over dramatic tonight." he said as he went and sat were Rook was sitting next to me. "He'll be back don't worry", Slim told me giving me a warm smile. "Anyways like I was saying. It's okay if you didn't hear it......it's not like I was expecting you to hear it anyway." Colson said as he patted my back. "What do you mean you didn't expect me to hear it anyways?" I asked as I looked at him. He got up and walked over to Slim. "Well yeah.....I mean I thought you were gonna be too busy with Luke tonight and you were gonna blow it all off even if I did sing I felt you wouldn't care....cause of him......", Colson said as he kicked a red cup away from him. "But I wasn't with him, apparently I wasn't with anybody. And even if I was with somebody I would still care enough to listen to you." There was a long pause and I continued, "I did hear it  and it was freaking beautiful, Camila's voice is just....", before I could finish Slim quickly interrupted me. "Are you still drunk? Well I mean  no duh right, you couldn't even wake up.....I guess you're still drunk. Just when they were gonna perform you were booing Camila off the stage. And now you're saying she sings like the angels", Slim said calmly. He must have seen my face of what the hell cause he apologized and continued speaking, "I'm sorry but it's just a little weird. It makes you sound fake." Slim said as he stretched. Colson just sighed and shook his head. "I did that....oh god....I mean I didn't like her but now that I know her she's pretty damn cool. Oh god I fucked up big time huh? Did she like take it seriously.....was she mad?", I asked Slim who just chuckled. "I mean Colson told her that it was just you not being you. Camila understood she just laughed and smiled and continued with the show. But don't worry you'll be seeing more of her in the not so far future." Slim said smiling and looking over at Colson who just smiled and nodded. "What's going on between you guys and why are you talking like in code......I wanna be part of this." I said as I got up. "Are you going out with her....is that why she'll be around more? Is that the reason it's top secret?", I asked Slim who just started laughing and shook his head. "No....we are not dating we're just friends," Slim assured me and chuckled once again. I looked over at Colson and gulped, "Are you dating her?" I asked hoping his answer was a no. "Maybe.....I'm just kidding no she's gonna do a couple more songs with us but that's it", Colson said as he looked at me and smiled. I let out a breath I didn't know I was holding in. All of a sudden Slim broke the silence, "Talking about dates you know Camila was talking to Luke." He said pointing to where I guess Luke was hanging out before the party ended. As soon as Slim mentioned Luke, Colson got up and started walking away. "I'll see you guys in the car", he said as he turned back around waved his arm at Rook and Rook left with him. I covered my face with my hands and groaned, "I guess he'll tell me later what they talked about", I said not really caring at the moment. "Why didn't you or someone else wake me up faster." I said as I sat back down and sighed.
Slim just outstretched his hand and offered it to me so I could get up again. "Trust me we tried.....not just Rook and me. Guadalupe, Brenda, Gerald, and even Luke tried but he gave up when you called him Colson." Slim said as he chuckled at the memory. I open my eyes wide in shock and shook my head. "Ohh hell noo....please tell me I didn't do that.....please Slim." I said as we walked over to the main entrance. "Fine.....I won't tell you....but just know that he didn't like it very much and left right after that." Slim said as he kept walking. I stopped and just shook my head. "I'm the biggest idiot that has ever lived.", I said loudly as I hit the wall. "Calm down there she hulk. No need to break the wall because I'm just playing....you didn't call him anything." Slim said laughing outloud. I glared at him and punched him on his arm and started walking out, "That's not fucking funny....you don't do that shit." I said as I turned back around. "You didn't let me finish, you didn't call him anything......except for Colson." Slim laughed once again and ran out the door. "Slim be serious for once in your fuckin life. SLIMMMMM....tell me the truth", I screamed as I ran after him. I eventually catched up to him and he just laughed, "Don't sweat it, he knows you. He knows you were all over the place and that you didn't mean it. He'll be fine just as long as you talk it out and apologize to him." Slim said putting an arm around me. "I guess......but I'm not quite sure I want him to forgive me", I said sort of quietly. Slim stopped dead in his tracks, "What....why...are you being serious?" he asked. I simply nodded and walked ahead to Colson's truck. I opened the back door on the passenger side and got in next to Rook. Rook smiled and got closer to me, he was about to tell me something when Colson spoke up. "Where's Slim?", Colson asked as he turned to look at me. "He's out here somewhere....nevermind he's right there." I said as I pointed at Slim who was heading to the truck. After a few moments the passenger door opened and Slim got in. "Well then.....let's go home so Colson can make us some pancakes!" Rook said as he cheered and scooted away from me. I just smiled and turned to look out the window. A fuckin dream......I kept repeating to myself everytime I catched a glance of Colson. "Well that was the best dream I ever had"
"What was that?" Rook asked as he turned to look at me. I looked at him confused and just shook my head. "I could've sworn you said something."  "Well I didn't......maybe you're hallucinating", I said chuckling. Rook just smiled and tapped Colson on the shoulder. "Why is she acting so weird?" Rook asked Colson and Colson just looked at me through the rear view mirror and smirked. "Jessie you wanna tell them or should I?" I looked at him really confused and waited for him to keep speaking, because so far I had no idea what he was even talking about. "It's fine I'll tell them......she's acting weird because before she passed out we shared an intimate moment. That I rather not speak of because a gentleman never kisses and tells", Colson said as he winked at me through the mirror. I immediately started panicking and stood up. Now I was starting to regret drinking. Had we actually done something and I didn't remember at all. I looked over at Rook and Slim and they both had my same reaction. Everyone was silent and all of a sudden Colson started laughing. "Ahahaha....y'all should've seen your faces! Hahaha", Colson laughed and kept driving. Slim, Rook, and I just looked at each other and let out a breath in unison and started chuckling. "That was a good one", Slim said hitting Colson's shoulder. I just smiled....dammit I wish something had happened. Wait a minute......something did happen. Now I knew what I had meant when I said I knew it before I passed out. Colson was mystery man.....and there is no damn way I could have dreamt him up either. That whole thing was real and it was Colson! I got so excited and I started smiling to myself. "Someone's happy", Rook said as he looked over at me. I smiled and nodded, "Yeap because I solved the mystery.....", I said outloud happily. They all looked at each other and then looked at me. "I know what I meant before I passed out", I said. They all looked at me and I felt the truck stop. "There's this mystery man....and I thought I would never find out who it was but now I know....", before I could continue Rook cut in. "We're at the cabin though and I'm starving so save the romance novels for another day", Rook said getting out of the truck and heading inside the cabin. Slim got off too and headed straight for the door. "So you know.....you know who this mystery man is?" Colson asked as he looked down at the steering wheel. "Yeappp", I said popping the p. "I just wish he would come clean himself and tell me why he did all this, when all he had to do was admit his feelings toward me and we could've avoided so.....so many things", I said as I opened the door and got out of the truck. I heard his door open and then shut but I never bothered to look back. I entered the house and went straight into the kitchen.
I felt a strong grip on my shoulders and I was suddenly pulled away from the kitchen and into the living room. "Nope...nope...nope if I'm gonna cook I need you out the damn kitchen cause you're not gonna let me do my thing", Colson said as he pushed me out the way. I looked at him and just backed up. What the hell was wrong with him, I had just told him I knew all the shit he was doing and he was acting as if I hadn't said anything at all. I questioned myself and decided not to question things. I just had to let things fall into place.
After an hour or so Colson finally made his way out of the kitchen and smiled. "Breakfast is served", Colson said chuckling as Slim came out of the kitchen with a pancake in his hand. Rook and I looked at each other and ran our way into the kitchen. I immediately grabbed a plate and served myself some pancakes, hash browns, and some bacon. Once I was done serving my plate I made my way over to a chair and sat down on the left side of the table. Colson was the second one that was done serving himself and he went and sat next to me. I didn't even bother to look up at him I just started eating the pancakes. "Holy Moly.....they're sooo damn delicious", I said with my mouth full. "I'm glad you liked them....there's chocolate one's over there and some with strawberries, you're fired, and some with blueberries", Colson said as he started taking a bite of his bacon. I almost choked on the piece of pancake I had in my mouth when I heard that. I looked over at Rook and Slim and I saw that they were caught off guard too. "What.....Colson....dude", was all Slim could manage to say. Rook didn't say nothing and just kept on eating which was a little hurtful to me. "Come again?" I asked not knowing if I had heard right. "You're fired", Colson said once again. "Colson.....what the fuck. Is this.....is this because of what I said a little bit ago?" I asked as I let my fork down and just turned to look at him. He shook his head rapidly. "No god nooo......don't.....we will talk about that topic another day. I just wanna make things right", Colson said as he stopped eating and turned to look at me. I looked over at Rook and Slim and they just shrugged. None of us knew what had gotten into him. "Don't look at me like that Jessie...",
"It's Jessica...not Jessie", Rook spoke out and smiled. Colson just gave him a glare and turned his attention back to me. "Listen...the day I asked you to come work with me I did it all based in a lie and that's not right. So I fired you so I can start fresh with you and hire you again", Colson said smiling. "Are you fucking kidding me?", I asked as I looked at him with confusion and frustration. "Yes I am....now....Hello nice to meet you I'm Colson. I need another drummer and I heard you're pretty badass so I was wondering if you needed a job?" Colson shook my hand and then proceeded to eat. I looked at him in shock and started chuckling. "You idiot......Well I guess I do need a job now that my bitchass boss fired me for no reason", I said as I started eating again since I knew he wasn't serious now. "Well welcome aboard. And that is the new beginning for the both of us", Colson said as he looked at me and smiled from ear to ear. I smiled back and continued eating. "Yall stupid", Slim said as he started eating again. We all started laughing and started talking about the upcoming part of the tour. All of a sudden my phone started ringing and I looked at the screen and saw it was Luke. "Hello", I said waiting for an answer. "Finally you decide to answer your phone. How are you feeling I was wondering....", before he continued I took a deep breath and let it all out. "I'm sorry Luke but I can't do this any more. You're an awesome person and this all sounded so much better in my head.....I am so sorry Luke", I apologized once again. There was a long pause, "Luke say something.....please." I said almost pleading. "I should've seen this coming since I met you. But you know.....I don't blame you it's all good. Plus this was gonna happen one day or another due to the long distance. What I'm trying to say is it's okay Jessica.....no hard feelings", Luke finally said and then proceeded to say bye. I finally hung up the phone and started eating again. "Well that wasn't awkward", Colson said with a smile. I looked at him and just shook my head. "It had to be done and it is.....I'm a free woman again." I said lifting up my fist. "You were always free....", Slim said laughing. We ate a little bit more and started planning ahead for the next show.