I went home late that day not wanting to encounter my mom, She was acting weird lately. when i did come home i over heard the end of a phone call.
"I Cant believe it! ...No don't you be mad at me...HE WAS THE ONE WHO KILLED HIMSELF.....Hello?" My moms phone call was short but I think I've put two and two together. Mom knows about me, and she was talking to Barbies mom. I appear out of the corner of the kitchen. My mom is standing on the other side. I walk in a little further hoping she isn't too mad at me. She notices me and turns her head.
"Do you know what you've done, yamora? You have ruined my life." This pushes me over the edge but I try to keep my cool
"Yeah well what about mine?" I shout...well there gose being cool. "I have to live with myself for the rest of my life knowing I am the way I am, and the fact that no one in this town understands at least not the ones who need to." i say looking at her accusingly
" Ok, your right, I don't know! , Why didn't you just keep it to your self?"
"I DID! Barbie is the one who told everyone. and the he chickened out of his life leaving me here, by myself!" This was the first time I ever talked about him like this since his death. "He left me here in the rubble and took the quickest way out."
"I'm sorry...you, you are my life yamora, I cant loose you and I don't want to be your enemy, its just..." she cant finish her sentence, The tears that were building up finally let way and it was like Noah's ark all over again I thought I would have to build a boat. She didn't stop crying until I finished getting her a coffee.
"Im sorry mom" I knew I shouldnt have to be but it felt right to say at the moment.
"Oh....." She waved it off. I don't think she will ever come to grip on my ways, but at least she's done yelling at me...for now.
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At school I have the bigger problem. My school has a slim to none tolerance for bulling but they also have a homophobic people in charge, my odds of being okay are looking pretty bad.
"hey! Don't act like I don't exist." lexy says with a smile, and walks up to me. i didnt even notice her. ha thats a first.
"Oh hey lexy" I smile, suddenly I don't feel so scared, in fact I feel relaxed as long as I have one person on my side im fine and it makes me even happier that that one person is lexy.
* im rally sorry I haven't updated ...I just haven't had any motivation or inspiration for me to write... im kind of at a block right now so if you want me to keep writing this can you give me some hints as to were you want it to go :P*
