Ok guys next chapter hope you enjoy and thanks for reading means a lot , just to be warned this chapter involves self harm so if you don't like then I suggest you don't read but apart from that enjoy 👍
Reminder involves self harm don't like then don't read thanks
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OMG SHE KISSED ME AND IT WAS AMAZING!!!! 💛💚💙💜
My inner self screamed out to me as I laid out on my bed smiling like an idiot, I can't believe it happened I just can't believe it heeehhhh 👌
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Later on supper....
"so how was school ?" The voice of my dad spoke slightly numbly
I looked up at my dad as he began to cut his meat not looking up at me which was a bummer but I was only amazed that he finally spoke to me what's gotten into him but hey can't argue I felt somewhat happy for this special moment and I wasn't gonna do anything to break it
"It was ok I guess , how was your day ?" I spoke slowly , I somewhat felt uncomfortable talking to him like I was speaking to a stranger but I spoke , popping an potato into my mouth before looking up at him
"It's been fine , I heard you have a boyfriend now is it true ?" The sudden question got me on hot ends causing me to drop my knife and fork onto my plae with a clank in which he quickly darted his eyes up at me cocking his eyes brows in the process, His tone seemed slightly angered as he spoke slowly which made my stomach churn in the oh shit way but I mananaged to process this moment of agony and think of an answer
"Farther I don't know what to say , only what you hear is a load of bullshit I ain't dating an boy nor will I ever I'm gay farther G.A.Y get over it and process what I just said will yah , I WILL NEVER BE STRAIGHT SO BE IT!"
I yelled through gritted teeth clearly angered before standing up quickly causing the table to shake on it's legs I'm getting sick of my father trying to make me someone I don't want to be he wants the perfect life and no embarrassments running in our small family but he'll have to learn or I'm out of here then he'll be by him fucking self
I watched on terrified as he stabbed his fork into the table to contain his anger before he quickly stood walking upto me , his fists clenched up so hard that they went white and his face scrunched up like a dog chewing on a wasp which was a scary sight , he was soon stood face to face with me but distanced slightly before yelling amongst his deep voice tone... so manly duh
"DON'T YOU EVER TALK TO ME LIKE THAT AGAIN YOU WILL TURN STRAIGHT OR I'LL SEND YOU TO LIVE WITH YOU MOTHER THEN YOU WILL EXPERIENCE LIVING LIFE AS A BITCH YOU SLUT!!"
I admit his words didn't weaken me not one bit but the next blow was an weakening point causing me to fall backwards as his fist met my face causing me to yelp in pain , I tried pushing his arms away from swinging at me but it was no use , I felt my muscles weaken as another blow hit me in the stomach causing me to gag as the sickening feeling filled my throat whilst he threw me to the ground were I held my face in pain as he began kicking me in the face
"BITCH !" he shouted whilst landing an upright punch against my eye causing me to tear up before after he finished he spat on me and walked off wiping his mouth in the process I know this hurts him but he's a prick
Tears burned my sockets as they spilled over freely strolling down my cheeks blood trickled down my face and out of my nose whilst my lip swollen and bust open , that bastard better keep out of my way or I'll have someone after him I thought whilst backing upto a wall crying at the excruciating pain and sat there with my head resting on the plaster works , I closed my eyes too exhausted to do anything and took a deep breath which made me groan in pain remembering the kicks and punches I'm sure gonna be bruised up tommorow why me ? why me ? is all I thought before everything turned black
