For you (Spn x Male!Reader) [It's Bad, It's Cringy.]

Chapter 5: Trust me

It was impossible. How can you give someone his humanity back if he never had one ? I can't do that with Lucifer. I was trying to think about a plan. If Lucifer thought I was a Cambion, he would want to use me as a weapon. But what's weird is the fact that he tied me...Cambion are the most powerful creature in existence, I heard. Or maybe, he thought that because I didn't know that my father was a demon I didn't know that I have powers...or some crazy shit like that. Who know what Lucifer has in his mind.

I closed my eyes and thought about Crowley. Should I be mad because he killed my parents ? What if he was just guilty and didn't loved me? Maybe he don't remember that he killed my parents, he's pretty old... I just realized the age difference between us. I never thought about it before. Crowley knew my father, he worked for the King of Hell. He could be my grandpa...or an ancestor. I sighed. It wasn't important anymore..

Maybe I knew from the start that Crowley was the murderer, in my blind research for revenge. Did I completely forgave him ? Can he be forgiven ? What is more important now ?

I want to ask Bobby or Sam...I miss them.

I want to see Dean. He's probably hating me right now, but just seeing him would be fine.

What if he actually loved me, but was too scared of losing me or something ? ...no it can't be. But maybe he's with Castiel ? The angel said that they share a "more profound bound". Dean said he wasn't into men, Castiel's vessel is male, but angel doesn't have a specific gender...

I groaned and hit the back of my head against the throne.

Why was I thinking about that ? My love story isn't important at all right now. It's all fucked up anyway. Like my life. And I'm stuck here, I won't ever get out of here. I'm a failure. I wanted to defeat Hell, and I'm reigning over it. How come someone filled up with only flaws can help people give their best ?!

A Gift, uh ? More like a Curse ! Both my mother and I are in Hell because of that shit !

And here he is. Lucifer. Where was he all this time ?!

"Are you having fun ?" he said smiling

I screamed out of rage and he just held both his hands in the air.

"Hey, it's not my fault if you're here !"

I began sobbing. Tired.

"You just appeared here, and because I don't want you to obstruct my plan, which is getting out of here, I just tied you !"

I cried for a while before stopping. Sniffling, I looked at him. It seems like he was waiting for me to finish.

"Why telling me the truth about my parent's murder then ?"

"To show you that I'm not necessarily the bad one."

"But you want to kill Humanity !"