For you (Spn x Male!Reader) [It's Bad, It's Cringy.]

Chapter 4: Unexpected meeting

I don't remember blacking out. A familiar male voice woke me up. All my body was aching.

"Wake up kid"

I open my eyes, everything's blurry. I slowly, painfully, lift my head up. I frown, trying to see clearly.

"You..." say the voice in realization and...disgust ?

My vision's back. I'm astonished. I was in front of the man who hated me: John Winchester.

"What are you doing here ?" he said, looking at the bond holding me to the throne.

"...reigning over Hell ?" I said unsure.

He turned around and started to walk away.

"No come back please ! I need to ask you things !"

He looked at me, with a piercing glare. I gulped.

"If it's to untie you, you can-"

"It's about my parents !"

"I saw your mother somewhere here...I don't know about your dad though. He's either working, either in Purgatory."

"She's here...?"

"Being with a demon is forbidden. So imagining having a kid !"

I looked down.

"Why does it have to be like this? Your family, and mine...We could have been so happy, if demon weren't...if they didn't..."

"How's Sam and Dean ?" He asked.

I was suddenly angry. I'm not one who easily express this kind of emotion openly. It build up inside me. And one day it just explode. And John Winchester was going to witness it.

"Why do you even care ? You weren't even here for them ! You used them to help you hunting ! You made Sam go away, he leaved Dean ! Dean who took care of his brother as if he were the father, because the real one was gone doing his own little business ! They needed you, and you were just thinking about your selfish self ! You had hurt them ! You had pleasure getting revenge from the monsters who killed your wife, and you didn't think about your own sons who are still alive ! You're an egoist ! "

He slapped me hard on my already injured cheek, clearly angry against me. But there was something else: it was similar to the way Dean had to calm me down. I chocked down a sob, the memory still fresh in my mind.

"Do you seriously think I didn't do this for them too ? That I didn't want my sons to be safe ? That I didn't want to live happily with my wife and them ? Like a family would ? Do you think I don't care about them ? If I didn't cared why would I've asked you about how they are ?!"