Stella a girl who just got diagnosed with depression and anxiety.
And she is struggling to make it through the day.
How can Jesus help her?
Stella meets lovely Jason: a handsome and Godly man. Through the love and the power of the cross, Stella w...
"Darling you need to get out of bed! It's a brand new day!"
"I know mom."
Another day, yay.
Mom keeps nagging me to go out with friends, what friends? She also keeps nagging me about how I don't get out of bed everyday. But what's the point?
But finally after I debate it for another thirty minutes I decide to get up.
"Well good morning sunshine!" Mom smiles as walk into the living room.
I just nod. She is sitting at the kitchen table drinking her coffee and reading the newspaper. My dad is probably off at work. And my little sister Lily is playing on her phone. As usually everyone is going about their everyday lives while I barely make it out of bed. But since I got back from the hospital things have been kind of weird around the house. But I guess that is normal when you come home from a mental hospital.
"Tonight I want you to go out somewhere." Mom demands.
"Ugh why?" I cry as I go to the coffee pot and pour some coffee.
Coffee has been my only friend lately.
"Where to?"
"Go out to church tonight."
"Again with church?" I sigh.
She doesn't understand I don't want any part of church anymore.
"Go with who?"
"Go with Megan." I look at her.
She is wearing her fuzzy pj's and the look on her face says there's no way I can get out of this one.
"Fine I will go if it will shut you up."
"Perfect! Go get ready!" I sigh and retreat to take a shower.
Ugh.
After I take a long and must needed shower, I decide to wear something actually pretty today. A pink sweater with a black tank top underneath (despite my issues with God I still agree with modesty), dark wash jeans, and tan colored fuzzy Bear claw boots. And surprise surprise, I do makeup! I haven't wore makeup in months so I decide tonight was the night for it, why not! "Why Stella you kinda sorta look pretty." I say to myself in the mirror.
Once I get out of the bathroom I text Megan:
"Hey girl can I come with you to church tonight?"
Then less than ten minutes later she replies:
"Yeah girl! Pick you up in 10."
So I am sure you are all wondering about well, everything so I will tell you. For the past six months I have been suicidal and very depressed. Three months ago I told my parents that I wanted to hurt myself and that day changed my life forever. After my parents freaking out for a couple of days they called my doctor who told me I need to go to a mental hospital. Long story short I was in there for about a week and I can honestly say that was the worst week of my life. So I have been out the hospital for about a month now and let me tell you, it's been rough. My parents pulled me out of public because I wanted to be home schooled. Public school was a nightmare for me but now I do love home schooling. Sadly all my friends from public school left me but Megan. Megan has been so amazing throughout everything. So I am on tons of medicines, see a therapist every week, but I am still depressed. And I have been diagnosed with depression and anxiety so yeah. I am sure you are still wondering why I don't want to go to church. Well, getting depressed literally changed my life forever so I am having a hard time not being mad at God for all my pain. But I am trying. I am fighting.
But this life is so rough.
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Hey beautiful! So I wrote this story a while ago. But I decided to publish it! So here you go! I hope you enjoy!❤️
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