// halsey imagines //

// dull nights & soft eyes//

just a kinda sad lil thing, my emotions have just been an utter wreck lately. and this imagine is all i need in life rn so, enjoy.

Y/N's POV

I let out a soft groan as I sit up on my bed. I stretch, hearing the light pops and crackles in my joints release as I reach to check my phone. I lightly press the power button, squinting my eyes at the brightness in an attempt to read the time. 4:02 am. I sigh, realizing that since I haven't fallen asleep yet, I probably won't whatsoever. I quietly maneuver out from the covers, careful not to wake my beautiful girlfriend up. See, depression is hell. It can fuck with every, microscopic aspect of your life; Even if you don't realize it. For me, my insomnia has taken over control of my life. I spent countless nights wide awake, and being that I have to be up at 6:30 am everyday so I can attempt to avoid the morning traffic is hell. This is the third restless night in a row for me.

Ashley, my god send of a girlfriend, has been with me through so much of this. She's always patient with me, and if I'm in a shit mood, she never jumps to ask me what's wrong. She just holds me in her arms, comforting me, realizing that if I want to tell her I will. She knows that whenever I'm feeling crappy, there's never really a reason for it. I just get these waves of sadness that completely drown me, and I have no idea where they come from usually. She's always supported and loved me, even when there have been times where I pushed her away for hours, hell, even days at a time. Even then, she understands and respects that, and loves me unconditionally. I don't fucking deserve her.

I slowly make my way to the kitchen, rubbing the sleepiness from my eyes. They used to be so bright and full of joy, what happened? Now the only true defining characteristic they hold are the ungodly dark circles surrounding them. I slip on some socks, shivering due to the coldness of the white tile floor. I empty the old coffee filter out and begin to make a new batch. As I pour fresh grinds into the filter, I feel a pair of slender, strong arms wrap around my waist. I melt into the touch and feel my hair being moved away, and kisses being planted on the nape of my neck. "Baby, don't drink coffee right now. Come back to bed, I need cuddles." Ashley whines cutely, her hot breath hitting my neck. "I'm just in... a mood again. Ignore me, it's fine. Go get some sleep for me honey, okay?" I attempt to bargain with the dark haired beauty. I feel her shake her head against my back. I sigh and she turns me around in her grasp. "I'm sorry baby. But c'mon, there's always time for cuddling. I know my baby girl could use some cuddles." She wiggles her eyebrows at me and I giggle, a grin spreading across her porcelain cheeks. "I will in a minute... I just, okay I honestly don't know." I half heartedly chuckle, running my fingers through my hair. Ashley's eyes soften and she soothingly rubs my cheek. I sigh and my voice breaks. "G-god, I'm a fucking piece of shit. W-why do you even wanna be with someone like me?" I sob softly, breaking down as I quickly pull out of her grasp, attempting to leave the kitchen. I feel Ashley's hand grab my wrist and pull me back. She corners me against the kitchen counter and places her hands on my face. "Y/N. Don't you ever fucking say that about yourself. You are not a piece of shit. I know you've gone through hard times, and those times still haunt you to this day. But I am here for you, every step of the way. I love you with everything that I am, Y/N. Please, don't forget that. Every time I see you smile, or hear your adorable laugh, hell- whenever you walk into the room, my entire day lights up. Just your presence is a fucking gift from the universe to me. I don't understand how I could have possibly been blessed to have someone as celestial, angelic, and just purely amazing as you. Like what did I do to deserve you? I still can't figure that out." She giggles, and I crack a light smile as I sniffle. She grins at me once more. "See! There's the smile that means the world to me! I fall more in love with you, each and every day Y/N, and I never thought I could fall harder for you, but like I said, I do daily." She smiles at me with soft, honey eyes and wipes my tears away once again and she pecks my nose. She attaches her lips to mine and we engage in a long, passionate kiss. Not rushed, nor did it contain lust. Just us, putting every last drop of love in our souls into that kiss. Saying the words our vocal chords could never justify. As we pull away and catch our breaths, she leads me back to the bedroom and we lay down. She pulls me into her side, letting me hide my face in the crook of her neck. "I'm so, fucking, in love with you." I mumble. She smiles. "I'm so fucking in love with you too, princess.

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so here's just a lil thing like i said, hope you guys enjoyed lmao.

-eden xx