It's Complicated

Chapter 2

It is about one in the morning when the girls and I get back to  my place. Instead of sending them all home I just have them crash here. We make our way into the house while trying not to disrupt my sleeping parents upstairs. We make it into the living room without  being heard then start talking about what happened at the party once we all split up. 

The conversation is really relaxed until Gianna says out of nowhere, "Tessa has a new man friend." She winks at me and starts laughing. I, on the other hand, was not laughing what-so-ever. My cheeks start burning up, so I look down to avoid anyone noticing. 

Alex comes, sits on my lap, and holds my face up while teasing, "Awwww little Tessa Blue is embarrassed. I think she has a little crush!" 

"I do not have a 'little crush', I don't even know anything about Hunter!" I snap while still trying to hide my embarrassment. 

"Woah, woah, woah...you mean Hunter Logan? Like football player Hunter Logan?" Carly starts and I start nodding. She continues, "I have known him since about sixth grade! Oh my god, he's great!" It was like he knows I am talking about him because now my phone buzzed and a random number came up on the screen. The message from that number read, Hey Tessa! It's Hunter :). 

Without even thinking, I decide to answer him right away.

Tessa: Hey Hunter. How are you? 

Hunter: Wow okay I didn't think that you would have answered since it is almost 2 a...but I am good how about you?

Tessa: I am good, thanks!

Hunter: So, tell me a little about yourself.

Tessa: Um, well I am 17 and will be 18 in June. I am the youngest in my family, I have two older sisters. I have a cat named Prescott...um...I like to do a lot of charity work especially at temple. I guess I would like to say I am independent. What about you?

Hunter: Let's see...I play football and like hanging out with my friends. I have an older sister and a younger brother. I hate going to hell... I mean school...um that's about it. I am a pretty chill person. 

Just that little introduction led us to talking for the rest of what is left of the night. 

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3 months later

It has been three months since I have met Hunter and we have been talking everyday since. Nothing has happened between us relationship wise, but we are now close friends. I haven't seen him much because of football. Now that the season for that is ending though, I really hope he will be around more. 

We just got back from winter break and everyone looks like zombies walking into the school building. Well everyone except me, I am really excited to be back. I haven't seen a lot of people over break and by people I mean Hunter. 

Mason, Gianna, Justin, Kara, and I all have our homerooms in the same hall so we meet up in the morning before parting ways. At this point they all know I like Hunter, I mean how can you not like those sky blue eyes. 

Kara and Gianna make Mason and Justin leave before pulling me with them into the corner of the hall. By the looks on these girls faces I knew something was up, I have known them for about half of my life at this point. 

Kara finally spits out, "Okay boo boo listen here, we all know here that you like Hunter. EXCEPT HUNTER! So you should probably tell him."

I had a feeling this conversation was coming. I begin to get nervous and reply, "I can't, I mean what if I am not what he is looking for. I am afraid he will reject and that I am not good enough. Look at him the look at me, I know I am not good enough. I am scared that I will never be good enough!" 

The two girls just look at each other then back at me. Gianna steps in and explains, "You are more then good enough for any guy in this universe. We all know it, but now it is your turn to believe it. You don't need to tell him. Just know that if you keep hiding from your feeling nothing will change for you. 

 Then we part ways and head off for the rest of out days. The whole day I had trouble focussing now because all I am thinking about is if I should tell Hunter about my feelings or now. 

I get home and fling myself onto my bed and just scream. I think, how can one guy turn me into such a mess. Then, I get up and go sit down in front of my stand up mirror in my room. I just sit there and look at myself. Finally, I realize that if he rejects me then who cares because I am good enough for myself and I know that. 

With my sudden boost of confidence, I grab my phone and send Hunter a text about how I feel. I explain how talking to him for all this time has made my feelings for him grow to wanting more then just a friendship. I take a deep breath and hit send. I drop my phone and begin to wait. 

I wait and I wait and I wait. Two hours go by, nothing. Four hours go by, nothing. It is now nine p.m. and there is still nothing. I am starting to think he is ignoring me on purpose. All the possibilities for what is going to come from this one message starts filling my head. 

It is now 10:30 and I am just giving up and going to bed when finally my phone buzzes. I look down and see it was finally a reply from Hunter so I unlock my phone anxiously. 

All my excitement drains from my body when I see a message that reads, 'I am flattered that you feel that way, really. It is just, I don't think I feel the same way. I am really sorry, but don't be upset, alright? I can't predict the future, but things can always change." Tears well up in my eyes and threaten to spill, but I won't let them. I am better then this and if he can't see that then oh well, his loss. 

I go to bed feeling better, yet worse about myself if that is even possible. He is right that things in the future can change, and I plan to make him see what he is missing.