If I stay (Joshaya AU)(Hunter)

Insecurities.

FLASHBACKS
It was Halloween, me and Riley we're going to Boings collage party, I was super nervous. I have been to the collage and there are pretty girls everywhere you look! It makes me sick. I trusted Josh and I knew he would never cheat but seeing all these gorgeous girls and then looking at me made me wonder what Josh saw in me. I wore a short red dress which flared a bit at the bottom. I was about to leave for Riley's when my mam and Shawn walked into my room.
'Maya, be careful I don't want any boys messing around with my girl' Said Shawn in a joking way but still serious. I really appreciated Shawn, he was the dad I never had, he has no real reason to take care of me and take me in like he did, but that's just who he is, my father.
'Be home by 12 sweetie'
'I will mam I yelled back.

As me and Riley walked up to the main entrance of the collage I spotted boing, he was so perfect, to me he had no flaws he was basically God on earth, this didn't help with my insecurities.
'Oh my, Maya you look stunning' said boing, I could tell he really meant it, I just didn't know why.
'Thanks Boing, you look alright' I said with a smirk.
He smirked back then grabbed my hand and guided me into the hall. Josh and his band were performing today and I was so exited to see him perform. He kissed me before he went to get ready with his band.
'So Maya, not to long and I'll be maid of honour at your wedding' winked Riley.
'Calm down sweetie, we're not quite there yet' I said smiling at Riley's comment.
'Well it's obvious that you're both head over heals about each other, he always comes to me and mom for advise about how to make you happy' this made a wide smile spread across my face.
'I'm not ready to let you go yet, cause I know pretty soon Josh is gonna become number one  in your life pushing me to number two, I don't think I'm ready to be two yet Maya' she said with a worried expression.
'Hey what's brought this all on? You know you'll always be my favourite, if it wasn't for you I'd probably be in jail right now, I want you to know what you'll always be my number one no matter who I'm with, I have been without Josh and I have been fine, cause I had you, but if I was without you I wouldn't be okay with just Josh, I need you both but I need you more, you're my family'.
Now Riley had tears streaming down her face.
'And you'll always be my number one peaches, no mater what' she said beiges jumping on top of me and wrapping her arms around my neck.
Boings band began to play and me and Riley made our way through the crowd and to the very front of the stage. Me and Riles began to dance around like two crazy people, I was having such a fun time. I looked up at Josh with a massive smile to see him already looking at me with an even bigger smile.

Me and Josh were waking to his car, after seeing him play tonight made me seriously insecure, I hated feeling like this.
'Maya, what's wrong, you have had this distant look in your eyes all night, you can talk to me'.
'Why did you chose me?' I finally asked.
'What?' He asked obviously confused by my question.
'Josh you're perfect! You could have any girl you want, all the girls in there are way more prettier than me, yet you still chose me and I don't understand why' I almost yelled.
Josh grabbed my face and pulled me closer till our faces were less than centimetres apart.
'I chose you because your are the most fun person to be around, cause you're the most loyal and kind person there is, cause you'd give up everything you have for someone you care about, because even though I left you cause I was to scared you were willing to forgive me and give us a go, cause if anyone was hurting someone you care about you'd kill them without thinking about it, cause you're the most tall enter person I know, cause you were willing to give up someone you really liked to your best friends cause it made her happy, cause even though you have been through hell you still have hope, cause I love you, Maya, it's you I love, it always have been!'
I was completely shocked by his sudden outburst, he loves me.
I stared at him for a while before finally catching my breath.
'I love you too Josh'
We closed the gap between us and kissed, all my insecurities gone.