Days have passed since the last day Taehyung slept over. He said he wanted to be alone for a while, and I did too, so I respected his decision to go home. My days have been boring, I layed in bed or on the couch watching youtube or something. I haven't spoken a word to anybody since Taehyung left either. Though today I decided I should get up and go somewhere. I walked to the nearest subway and payed for a ticket to go somewhere, anywhere. Coincidentally, I met Jimin there. He came over and asked if I wanted to go with him and I agreed. It would be nice to hang out with Jimin today. We got on the subway and sat next to each other. He gave me his cute eye-smile, but you could see something clouding his vision. He reached for my hand to try to hold it, I let him. I was so confused about my emotions. A few days ago Yoongi stole my first kiss and I whispered my first "I love you." Then I lost my virginity to the ever so smooth and kind Taehyung, who swore on Yoongi's love that he'd protect and love me. Now the funny and cute Jimin was holding my hand. I was so confused. Who did I love? Was I making a mistake? Was I cheating on any of them? No, I wasn't in a relationship. These were al personal love connections made by the same group of boys and I was torn between my first kiss, my first love, the boy who died and the one I made love to and the one who I had my first crush on. Why was this so confusing for me? I should know who I love, I should know who I want. But I don't know what to do after all that's happened. I know one thing for sure now though, I loved Yoongi but I had to get over him, he was gone, dead. I didn't love Taehyung, despite the hook-up I had with him, I didn't love him—he simply loved me. I had to tell him how I felt. I had to tell him I didn't want him and I to go further in whatever thing we had, that I just wanted to be his friend. I knew it would kill him, but to keep up with a fake lie for longer would hurt more. Surely he would understand. Right? I closed my eyes for a moment and finally decided. I loved Jimin. I had to tell Taehyung as soon as possible that I couldn't continue with him. That I wanted him as a friend. Jim leaned in to kiss my cheek, his other hand moving up my thigh. I was shocked at this and he noticed and pulled his hand back.
"No, it's okay." I smirked reassuring him to stay put.
Jimin smiled happily and found his way to my lips, his hands moving gather up my thigh. There was no one else around us so I let out a soft and quite moan. Jimin seemed pleased and started to kiss my neck.
"Sky." He said between breaths.
"I love you." I finished his sentence.
Jimin seemed so happy that he didn't stop until they announced the place where we had to get off. He held my hand the whole way until we came across the waterfront. Jimin turned toward me and sat down and motioned for me to sit in his lap.
"Chai Skyler," he started, "Would you like to be my girlfriend? I really love you. I know what happened between Taehyung and you, and I got his blessing before asking you." He smiled.
I couldn't help but feel happy and went in to kiss him.
Taehyung was okay with it.
"I'd love to be your girlfriend, Park Jimin."
