Esoteric Prose

insecurities

'Fat' over the years i exist, this word lost it's power to me.

I am not the skinny type nor the endomorph type. I don't have an amazing figure. I am far from being a model. I consider myself I have more fat than I should.

In the first place, no ones to blame but myself. I've done it to myself tho. Uncontrollable and Unbecoming persona.

Back then I still remember, While I was watching, the king size Snickers bar I hid in the nightstand a couple days ago. A choir seems to start singing in my head when I unwrap the glorious piece of chocolate.

Then top model on television tries to convince the wannabe model that seems like talking back at me she says,

"You need to stop letting your insecurities get to you! You are beautiful! Fiercely real!"

Realization hit me.

Taking a bite, I remember why I am the way I am. Freaking candy bars and no self control. All that mind over matter bullshit doesn't apply to me. I glower at the candy bar but take another bite before chucking it into the trash can across the room.

I make no apologies for being me, but I need to stop them penetrate my thoughts and feelings, Words only mean something if you give them meaning. I won't let them blocks my way. I'll proved them wrong! But a little better change would be really great idea!