Esoteric Prose

Diversions

I am not a fond of reading, especially stories. I read for educational purposes mostly. but, as I grew up, many things happened. And that things lead to sometimes I didn't know myself anymore. As I go through,  i have learned an important thing in life Don't lose yourself no matter what.

You have this clear goal in mind, but along the way, there are some wall that blocks you,  smoke that will hinder to see your way and people that will bring you down that causes you slow down in finishing race. 

I am no 'bullet proof',  I'm a human also (reminding that you might forget), I get hurt and stumbled. Please be reminded that watch your words carefully, I'd rather hurt physically than emotionally. I might keep saying to myself that they don't matter, but something on me tear and killing me apart.

People in truth are weak. I am weak. I perfectly imperfect. 

I created many diversions, and one of those is reading fiction.

The most scary thing that happened to me is believing too much stories created by the writers. Fiction they say.
I was drowned and fall to its pit, and I can't hardly stand for myself. I believe too much that this stories happen in real life.

Even though, I know that is purely made by the creative imagination of some individuals, at the back of my mind, somehow, I wish that they truly exist.