Prologue
Lies... Lies...Lies . That´s all she told me. That´s all she has ever been . "Us" never existed .
Loving her was throwing myself off a cliff into the endless deep and unkwown. Watching her was having a paradise in front of my eyes , but not being able to appreciate it because it was impossible to catch my breath , without asphyxiating before making any initiation move .
Looking into her eyes seemed to be the key for my total damnation. Those mesmerizing blue eyes hypnotized me , they left me breathless . It was impossible to say no to her. Not dissapointing her was my main task, even if it implied me being another person.
I acknowledge people just saw me as her toy. How ironic ! Now , I realize they were not wrong. I was the wrong one , the one who was too blinded by her game to see the way she manipulated me whenever she pleased. I was her victim . She set her eyes on me , calculating every move . And I , like all the great idiots , fell into her excellent planned trap.
There´s no one to blame, but me . I was so deluded into thinking a girl like Vienna could actually care about me , about my feelings. She played with my feelings all along, taking advantage of the honesty I imagined we shared. She used the words I said against me. Leading me on, her favorite tactic was .
I keep wondering overnight why she walked in my life to alter its normal curse. Did she have any interest in seeing me in pain , suffering and heartbroken ? Or did she think it would be too much fun destroying an easy prey ?
I shouldn´t care anymore , but I can´t help it. To stop seeing her is far from possible since we keep crossing paths in school. My heart tightens in my chest by her sight.
Memories haunt me . The ghost of the past remains in the present , lingering in every corner of my mind. I wish I could forget , the problem is I don´t know how. It´s not like I could take an eraser and force the memories out of my head. Her name is stamped in my troubles . I´m stuck trying to figure out a way out from the huge mess she provoked.
I will never forgive her; though it is not necessary to state that . Her ego is higher than the Eiffel tower to look back , reconsider what she did and clean all the damage.
