The Boxer and His Angel

Chapter 12-Where is he?

I'm laying on the cold sheets,really starting to wonder how I got here.How I got Ryan in my life.How I have trouble falling asleep.How I only think of him.

"What time is it?"I get up from the bed only to see Ryan sitting on my chair,eyes closed.Is he sleeping?How did he fall asleep so fast?I quietly walk over to him, careful not to wake him up.

He's really beautiful.I admire his messed up hair that's covering his eyelids,his skin that's ripped on his left eyebrow.It's when he fought for me.Nobody's ever done that for me,went to such lenghts to save me and protect me.How has he gone from the guy I can't stand to a guy I'm calling my boyfriend?
I can't stop looking at him.Now I can watch him without him knowing how much I can stare at him.Otherwise it would be awkward.
His soft lips are slightly parted and I can't control myself when I reach to caress my finger along his bottom lip.
Ryan suddenly gets up and grabs me throwing me on my bed.

"I thought ypu were sleeping."I say placing a hand over my heart.He scared the living hell out of me what's with that sudden grab and throw?
He places me comfortably on the bed.What's up with him?I look st him as I see this troubled look on his face as he removes his shirt.My heart is beating rapidly.
To my surprise,he gets under the covers and spoons me.My shirt tangled up to my stomach,leaving my thighs and upper parts exposed.A light blush occurs on my cheeks as I feel his hand on my bare thigh.His hand travels up to my shirt and all I want to do is feel his touch,feel him next to me.He takes the shirt and untangles it,slowly pushing it down and covering me.Not a word is spoken between us,but there is no need for words.He's so different, although I haven't had any experience,I know most guys would take advantage of the situation.
But Ryan didn't.
I turned around and cupped his face.It was dark but I could feel his gaze,and I know he felt mine.He got closer and kissed me.It wasn't like our other passionate kisses,it was a sweet,loving one.His hands stayed on my face as his lips synced with mine.Then his lips started moving upwards as he kissed every square inch of my face.
I wrapped my hands around him and places my head on his bare chest.I don't know what possessed my body to do it,but I did.I also kissed every part of his chest and it felt better to give than take with him.I want to make him happy in every way.I never felt like this.

"Here."He spoke as he places a hand on my head.I looked up to see his eyes pinned on mine as soon as I looked.

"Here is where you got hit by the door when we first met.God I thought you were the clumsiest person ever.I still do."His raspy voice sound so good.I gently smack his chest.How does he remember where I had hurt my head?
I touch his left eyebrow.

"This is where you got hurt protecting me."I smile as he gently presses his lips among mine and lays back.

"We only started dating and already we have scars to remind us of each other.I won't ever be able to forget you Angel."Why is he saying it like it's s goodbye?

"I know I won't ever be able to forget you Ryan."I say and soon enough my eyelids shut as I drift off to sleep.

I'm not grumpy at all as I wake up to the sound of notifications.I jump from the bed in excitement looking for Ryan.He isn't in bed so I assume he's in the bathroom.
The shirt he took of and placed on the floor isn't there anymore.I feel as someone hit me in the stomach as I look everywhere in the house for him.His shoes aren't next to the door.
He left.
I look in the living room to see it's empty.Where did Beverly leave?I run up the stairs to grab my phone.
I see a few texts from Beverly,most of rhem describing how it was with Sky yesterday,but the one that caught my attention was:

'Oh Sky and I went to get some breakfast,I'll probably come by your house later!!I didn't see Ryan in your bed this morning,what happened?'

I don't know what happened.Where is he?He didn't leave a note nor text?Well I guess he's fine, probably has some work or something.

I clean up the living room and go up to my room.There I run over to the bed.It smells like him.The left pillow smells like him.I inhale and hug the pillow.
What are you doing Angela?
Get it together.
You're right.
I clean my room and move to the balcony only to see a cigarette dropped near the door.I pick it up and place it in my drawer.He said he started smoking after his brothers death.He was older then when it happened to me so I guess he remembers more.He's suffered way more.Why can't I just take his pain away?

For a couple of hours I studied,did a little work on my assignment that is due next week.I finished studying fot the bio and chem test.I went over some other subjects, anything to keep me from thinking about Ryan or why he hasn't called or texted to tell where the hell he went.
It was 6 PM, after I watched a movie I went downstairs.I grabbed a couple of snacks and made myself some cereal.I replied to Beverly's text's.She wasn't coming over today since she's having some guests at her house.
I hear a doorbell and my heart races.What if it's Ryan?
Rushing over to the door I push it open and was greeted by my grandparents.I was so happy, but I was also disappointed it wasn't Ryan.What are you talking about Angel? Seriously get it together.
My hands go over them both as i squeeze them with all my strength.
"Wow honey you need to be more gentle.My back is killing me."I laugh at my grandpa as I let them in and let their people get their suitcases up to their room.
"What are you guys doing here?I mean I'm thrilled but I wasn't expecting you so soon."I smile as they walk into the living room and sit on the couch.
"Well,Mr.Burrows called in sick for the next few meetings, since he's the main leader of them, they've been cancelled."My grandma sighs as she removes her jacket.

"We are so tired honey,we were thinking of going to bed right away,then in the morning we can go somewhere?"I can see that they're very tired by the bags under they're eyes.

"I have school tomorrow."I laugh as they share a worried look.

"It's no big deal guys you get you're rest and we'll see what we can do after school tomorrow."My laughter mixed with words brushes their worried expressions as they get up, kiss my forehead and exit the room.I know they're tired,but I missed them.I hope tomorrow we'll figure something out.This was a pleasant surprise.
I go up to my room with my snacks and sit on the bed turning on my laptop.For the rest of the night,I watched some shows, anime and movie's untill it was 2 AM.I'm still not tired,and Ryan still doesn't leave my mind.

The sound of the alarm breaks me up from my sleep as I press snooze,but then I remember Ryan.I sit up, rubbing my eyes and afterwards I stare into a wall my blankets covering my shoulders.Slowly I get up with a blanket wrapped around me as I get into the bathroom.
After a refreshing shower,I brush my teeth and dry my hair.I decide to straighten it.Since it's cold today,i wear a knitted baby blue sweater with ripped jeans and converse.I do my makeup a little bit more today,since I had bags from staying up late.Grabbing my backpack,phone and headphones I go to the kitchen.Cooper is sitting on the stool eating some P&J.I grab orange juice and decide to also eat P&J.

"No good morning?"I ask Cooper.

"I'm not in the mood."He spits out.

"For what?"I ask with my brows furrowed as I take a bite of my sandwich.

"For your nagging or whatever.Just leave me alone this morning."He says really pissed off.I grab my bag and just walk to the door and slam it shut.I hate when he talks like that.What the hell does he mean my nagging? He's such a piss of.
Plugging my headphones in,I decide to walk today,since I have time and I just want to clear my head.
I miss my mom so much.I wish I could tell her abou Ryan.She would approve of him I know it.
My father didn't get one visit from me since he's been in prison.Cooper doesn't even want to think about it,but I've been thinking to go see him.See why did he do that to my mom.What type of psycho does that.

As I arrived to school,I realised his car nor motorbike wasn't in the parking lot.Did he skip or something?
Where the hell are you Ryan?