Friends, not lovers.

Disappointment//

Unedited and crap, but at least I updated!!!

The bright rays of the sun shone bright against my closed eyes. Wait...sun?

Oh my god.

I opened my eyes and found myself sitting on the balcony. The events of last night flashed right through my mind like figments of imagination.
I was wondering why I spent the night here when I realised that Jace was sleeping right beside me. In fact, I had my head on his shoulder.

I think I woke him up when I tried to move my head and I immediately regretted it. I didn't want to disturb him.

"Sorry, Jace, didn't mean to wake you up like that."

"Good morning to you too, Clary!"

Just as we were between this conversation someone entered our room with such ferocity I thought the hinges must have broken.
Still unknown about the person who would have caused the damage I turned to Jace and said, "We should really start to lock the door."

"Even if we did lock it, with such force even the gates of hell would be broken", he slyly replied.

Turning towards our sliding glass doors I looked up only to find Simon. But this time I wasn't glad that the events of the previous day went through my brain within that moment.
Adjusting to this whole situation, Simon fighting with me over some girl who he doesn't even like (!!!) and accusing me of things he knows I'll never do, this was all too overwhelming.
I didn't want to see him, I didn't want to be around him. As much as I wanted this last week to be perfect seemed unreal now.
Jace stayed quite.
As a matter of fact, all of us did. I blankly stared at Simon and he stared back at me and Jace.

To break the silence, he spoke, "Clary, I have decided to forgive you. I know we say some things in the spur of the moment so it's fine. I hope we can go back to being friends now, we wouldn't want to ruin our last week, would we?"

What? He forgave me? His highness? Forgave? Me? Shocker.

"Excuse me? You forgive me? Do you realise what you've done? You took an anonymous irrelevant person's word over mine. You expect me to "go back to being friends" after you've told me that you are going to forgive me?" I was raging with anger.

"Clary, do you even realise how much you've changed since you got here? It's like I don't even know you. I came after the pleasant conversation we had the other day and all you're doing is bitching out?", Simon yelled.
I could not stop from letting my tears flow as I said, "I am sorry I was a bitch. I am truly sorry. Despite the fact that I know I am one, I am sorry I was helping out a friend and Riley took advantage of it and twisted some crap to make you believe her. I thought trusting each other did that but let me tell you how disappointed I am. Get out."

The nerve he had.
Is this my best friend I trusted? Is he Simon?

As he turned away and stepped out of the balcony, he slammed the door, still in his asshole character. And as soon as he left, Jace took my hand.
He didn't say anything, it was more like a silent assurance, that he was there and that assurance  was all I needed after what just happened.

I quickly excused myself for a walk and like the understanding person he is, he let go of my hand saying, "Don't forget your jacket, it's cold."

I smile and then I leave our suite.
I am walking towards the elevator when I spot Will. "Hey Clary! Everything alright?"

I almost whisper, "It will be. I hope."
Sensing the unsettling feeling I had, he gives me a quick hug and then says goodbye.
The first thing I do is go to the coffee shop and buy myself something warm like some cookies and hit the road.

I liked walking. To breathe the air outside. It gave me space. It gave me the space people never gave me. It gave me the time to think. It gave me time, all to myself.

I had just walked for five minutes that it started to rain. But this time I didn't care. With so many things running out of my life and already draining me I didn't worry if I went with it too. It was a watery chaos. I was a chaos, and I didn't think of coming back to the hotel until I shivered. So much that my nails turned blue. And as much as I wanted to die, I didn't want it to be like this, so I started walking back to our hotel.
By the time I reached to my door I couldn't even get the keys to work the lock and luckily Jace opened the door from inside. He must've heard the shuffling of metal keys.

Looking at me he gaped. "Clary!!!!!! I told you to wear a jacket but this is even worse??? Why did you keep walking in the rain? Why didn't you take a cab or call me to pick you up??? I am very disappointed Clary Fray."

I just looked at him.

"Wait, what happened Clary?" He asked with concern.

I just looked at him.

"Clary? You're worrying me, what happened? Did Simon meet you? Did he say anything? Or was it Riley bitch?"

"It wasn't anyone."
The words just came out like word vomit.
But with the words I couldn't control, tears also came out.
"Jace why is Simon doing what he is? I swear I didn't tell Riley to do anything. If it were up to me I would've never even asked you but I thought I'd be helping her out. Why doesn't he believe anything I say and why does he blindly believe her?"

Jace hugs me.
Pulling me into his embrace. He slowly whispers in my ear, "It's because he's delusional. He doesn't know who he might lose if he doesn't stop being an asshole. I don't know why he is doing this or what made him to even think about this but I am going to get to the bottom of this. And I am going to tell you that I am here for you no matter what, you'll always have your Jace."
I held him tighter because he was all I needed at the moment and because I couldn't stop shivering.
Noticing that, he tells me to change and puts a blanket around my shoulders when I come back to my bed and keeps his arm around my neck and I sleep right there. With him. Taking in his scent and drifting away into nothing.
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