60 things to do before I die.

Chapter one

(In the doctors office)

Dr. Hall walked into the room, with a usual smile on his face.

"Ms. Gonzalez, great to see you again"  as he greeted me with a handshake.

"Good Morning, Dr. Hall"

This is the third time I've been into the doctors office this week, and quite frankly, I hate it. You see, I'm in here for my results after the tests my doctor made me go have.

Dr. Hall scanned my test results, and that huge smile on his face, slowly turned into an emotion of pity and hurt. He looked up at me, and looked down in concentration. It was like he was re-reading my results, hoping that the Medical oncologist I saw made a mistake.

"Audrey... I don't know how to say-"

I cut him off before he could even speak.

"I have Leukemia, don't I?"

No words came out of his mouth, he just nodded his head.

"How severe is it?"

"It's not bad right now, If we don't treat it in time it can get worse... But, I'm going to book you in to get Radiation done to stop it as best as we can."

I could tell Dr. Hall was trying to keep me looking at the positive side.

"How...Long do I have left?"

He sighed, I could tell he was going to tell me I have 3 months left, at best

"Approximately, a year."

I buried my hands in my face, I tried to hold back the tears until I was in my car.

"It's not for sure though Ms. Gonzalez, if we get you into radiation in the next few weeks. You might fight Cancer."

I gave Dr. Hall a fake smile and nodded my head, like I was actually going to believe him about me living for another year.

"Audrey, you should know the effects of radiation"

I nodded my head again, speechless.

"You may lose your appetite, experience nausea, and have some damage to the spleen, bone marrow and lymph nodes. You may also start to loose your hair, not everyone does though"

"Thanks Doc"

I got up, shook the doctors hand and was about to leave the room.

"Audrey, expect  a call within 2-3 weeks"

Dr. Hall handed me the papers that had my results in it.

I looked down at my results, and quickly scanned the papers and lifted my head to look into Dr. Halls eyes.

"Got it."

“Do you any questions Audrey?”

I shook my head and headed towards the counter to check out of the doctor’s office and made my way to my car.

***

I pulled into the drive way of my mothers house, I just sat in my car looking down at the results from my Medical oncologist that I saw.

"Test results show that Audrey Maria Gonzalez has Chronic Leukemia"

I smashed my fist again the horn making it beep for a quick second, and letting the tears that I had held in the doctors office pour down my face.

I pulled down the mirror and admired my brown hair that will possibly be gone.

I took a deep breath, fixed my face and headed for the front door of my home.

I opened the door, and tried to close it as quietly as I could so my mother wouldn't realize and made my way to the stairs

"Audrey!"

My mother called from the kitchen. I took off my toms and sighed as I walked into the kitchen where she was making lunch.

"Smells good mum"

My mum was making my favorite, Chili.

"How did the doctors go Audrey?"

"Fine"

My mother pulled the chair out next to me and grabbed my hands.

"Audrey Maria Gonzalez, don't you dare lie to me."

I tried to think of the best way to tell my mother that I have Leukemia and that I'm dying.

"Mum.......The test results came back positive for Leukemia, I'm dying"

Her face dropped, I could tell that she was about to cry.

But she didn't she just looked at me, upset. Like she had been preparing for it, like she knew this was coming, she just got up, stood next to me and embraced me with a hug.

***

(11:00 at night)

I sat in my bedroom, thinking about today.

"Test results show that Audrey Maria Gonzalez has Chronic Leukemia" kept replaying in my head, my mother face reaction.

"You have approximately a year." That right there got me thinking, I haven't done much in my life, there are things I still want to do...

"A bucket list" I shouted and then covered my mouth, coming to realization that I said that out loud, and probably waking up my mother.

And then, right then and there I heard my mother crying.

I opened up my bedroom door, walked down the hallway and opened my mum’s door and without a word, she looked up at me. Her eyes all puffy and red, I crawled under her sheets and comforted her.

"60 things to do before I die" I whispered to myself and smiled.