Forward into chapter 1: the mind.
~ Suffering is Fortitude~ , this is the bold motive and moral that i live by. Its simple- he who suffers most, is the most level headed and has experienced the worst and wears it like the teeth marks of death.
Now my mind has four reasoning points of view, they are: sadness, hate, love and neutral logic.... in other words:
sadness: regret and self-hate.
Hate: The sheer madness of the weight of thoughts.
Love: I am human, loyalties, pity and of course things care about.
Neutral logic: my rationalist point of view unbiased between love and hate.
So the examples of these:
sadness: my current talent at getting and using scholarships i wish i hadn't got.
Hate: the cold blooded rage that has given me dreams of killing my own father.
Love: the will to stay alive, do good in school, be grateful and not trouble my mother.
Neutral logic: my inner cautious self that stops suicide and prevails over most instincts.
i am a schoolboy, with no guidance to life, just finding my way in the dark. in my mere 13 years i have worked my morals under intense scrutiny and have come up with these...
WORST SINS:
being vain
being spoilt
being loud
being proud
solutions?:
being hard on ones self
living a simple life with no luxury
any thoughts that will provoke are best kept to fester within
never retaliate in bad habits [ the previous]
so this is how the [my] mind works in later editions i shall go into reasonable depth.
