Resonance Of The Shards

The Demons

I very well knew my demons; possessive, over thinking and not having faith on anything including myself. I am insecure but I have been making steady progress through the years, I know one day I will have only the healthy part of possessiveness left in me. As for over thinking is my greatest demon, it is a double edge sword I often wield which is not without some self infliction. The ot, as I believe gives me extra perception to how I view everything and gives me space to improve. But with the perceptions also comes disbelief of the reality. One day I might go mad, I wish there was someone who I could focus on to keep me sane. I thought you would be that person, I take some work to believe, trust but once so I just grow untiring on it. I wish you understood, I just wish... I apologize from the depths for every time you thought I didn't believe you. I disregarded the initial demon and ended up believing, and only punching myself to make you feel insecure around me..  Am sorry I know there is a lot I focus all of this on myself, while you and only you should be my priority. Maybe that is why am not yet matured. I just wish to understand you now and nothing more.... On a deeper level. if only you looked into my eyes, into my soul how much I had faith in you. You are the miracle that changed the one thing I couldn't change myself.