Resonance Of The Shards

The Ingenious Masquerade

Too much flooding of you in myself and there all of a sudden something took a horrid turn of events. Everything went blank especially my emotions, my everything for you... I was scared of this diabolic diablo that is unraveling itself within me. How can I be in so much deep pain it made the sleepless nights and hungerless life, and be of nothing just at flick of some switch within me. Is this the contortions of my mind? Am I bipolar now. While I was in my chaos there were pure souls around me who let them reflect myself on to them, and thus I had a vague answer for what
I am undergoing. Extraneous of the suffering and pain, my brain had its own secret conscience to masquerade the underlying tricks it's about to unveil.. Yes, it is making it's run away from the pain by totally blanking me out. I know out of scar's experience that focusing on something else helps you ease the pain and this is my own brain being the master at it. I am strangely focusing on the things around me more than usual. Not a pinch of over thinking, apparently my subconscious granted your wish.. For I can only witness what is in front of me and not what might be beyond it.. This feeling is strange, had the pleasure of occasionally experiencing this. I feel as if I had voluntary control over it for first time, not afraid I would lose it. Since I know it's just at the bay waiting for summoning once more. I am going to meet you yet again today or at least I hope so. I am sane, not vulnerable, ready accept to reality, and ready to accept for what ever form you take on and you present yourself to be.