Yeast 2.0

And When...

*sigh* When life gets so crappy that even your own sister blocks you. And you are so forever alone that you spam your sister and she ends up blocking you. And when your best friend deletes the app that he contacts you with because he doesn't want to deal with you. And when your other two friends hardly come on because they are probably not your friends. And when you daughter wants to die and you can't help her. And when you probably have a crush on one of your best friends. And when life is just so confusing. And when your feelings towards another person are just so confusing. And when the person your best friend is crushing on asks you to help her with jelly beans. And when you almost miss your bus each day because of your stupid Spanish teacher. And when you have to catch a ride with one of your friends because you actually did miss your bus. And when you've been kicked out of your own seat on the bus. And when the sixth graders take over the back of the bus and you just want to kill them. And when the sixth graders are so loud and you can't even hear your music. And when the sixth graders keep jumping around, getting everyone else in trouble. And when your clarinet doesn't work so you fix it with a sock. And when you are so annoying that you bother everyone and nobody is your friend. And when you are so shy that you don't like to talk to people. And when you just want to be alone but everyone else is oblivious to your problems and they just keep bugging you. And when can't sleep at night because your mind is thinking about all the people. And when life is just so depressing because you don't know what to do with yourself. And when just want to listen to music but your family wants you to talk to them, but you end up never saying a word. And when you have dreams about your friends. And when you can't stop thinking about one person. And when you are depressed and you get even more depressed when you listen to a certain song. And when you can't sleep because all you ever think about is one person. And when you know that the one person you keep thinking about doesn't feel the same way. And when you just want to walk down the street in the dark. And when you just want to get away from humanity. And when your friends go away and you miss them so fucking much. And when you just want to go up to a certain person and hug them. And when you care so much about your friends that you ask them if they're okay frequently. And when you can't do anything because your grandma is holding you back. And when your other grandparents are separated. And when your aunt goes crazy and says she hates everyone (okay, she didn't but it's too complicated to explain). And when you write so many stories about cats that you end up thinking like one. And when your friends ship you with everyone you talk to. And when you just want to hug a certain person forever because you love them so much, and you just want to make sure they are there. And when you are in so many chat groups but like no one ever comes on. And when you kinda just want to die. And when you cry at night because of a certain person. And when that one person you keep thinking about just gives you mixed signals and it's so confusing. And when you can relate so much to a song it's just sad. And when you read too many cat books that you feel like a cat. And when you realize that a certain somebody has been staring at you. And when your gaze locks with that one person you can't stop thinking about. And when you get that feeling that the one person you can't stop thinking about acknowledges you when they normally don't. And when you just want to hug everyone (I know I've mentioned this about 60 times). And when you read a romantic book and you just think of yourself and that one person you can't stop thinking about. And when you have arguments about trash cans and fat blobs. And when you have so many random books. And when you are so hungry but you don't feel like getting food. And when everyone is just so grumpy and selfish. And when you just want to kill everyone. And when those drama queens at school are all "drama queen-ish". And when you are so annoyed with people because they tell you things over and over as if you didn't hear them the first 6 times. And when your parents say you have an attitude when you only answered their question.
9.4.16 

Yeah...that's it for now... 

No. I did not do this for self pity. I'm not a self pitying bitch, as much as this shows. Give me your sympathy and I will personally kill you.