My Rant Book (SPORADIC UPDATES)

Update on Me

I'm in love with one of my closest friends, but not the one I mentioned some chapters ago.

I'm co-captain of the color guard at my school, but it doesn't feel like I'm leadership at all.

I have to restrict my emotions around everyone because I hate when people ask me what is wrong.

I don't want to graduate.

Zoloft isn't working the way I thought it would.

I still get story ideas, but I just give up on them because I know I would never finish them.

When people ask me how I'm doing, I respond with "I'm alive."

I'm angry at the staff of the band, I'm angry at the captain of the color guard, I'm angry at my friends, I'm angry at myself.

I hate myself when I think about it.