Keep Those Green Eyes On Me

Chapter 8: Distance

Finals. Someone murder me please. Getting good grades on these tests so my mom won't kill me is my top priority right now. I feel like I haven't time to breathe. School is just too much work sometimes. I feel so suffocated sometimes. I am jealous of some of the kids at school who can cruise on through it and still get good grades. I have to work very hard just to keep my grades at where I want them to be. At least my friends are there. I don't know what I would without them. Since I'm graduating in a couple of months, school is now more important than ever. The only way I have survived the last couple of years is my friends. I don't even know how Jack is holding up with the stress of finals and everything. But then again he is slacker so he probably doesn't care. With everything going on in our lives we haven't time to talk. He has a new job so that has him being busy a lot. He is still with Bailey. They seem like they are going strong. When I do see Jack he is normally with her. Lately it has been as if they are joined at the hip. But there have been a few moment here and there where I have had a few minutes to talk to him.

“Why you so jumpy?”Jack asked before third period a couple of days ago.

“Why not be so jumpy? I guess I’m so happy. Don't ask why, I just am.”

“It's good to see you like this. You are so full of happiness and that is what I love about you. You love being happy and avoid being sad at all costs.”

I stare at him appalled. He just basically described me in one sentence. I didn't think he knew me so well. Maybe I underestimate him sometimes. I don't mean to but, I still have my doubts when it comes to him. I try not to think about him too much because that path just leads to destruction. I nitpick everything he tells me, I think of what I could of said better. Basically I over analyze everything until I analyzed it about five million times. That saying distance makes the heart grow fonder doesn't apply to me and Jack. For me it is the opposite. When him and I have distance my feelings for him keep getting less and less. Sometimes I wish he could be able to tell that I don't want him around me or I want him to do certain things like touch my arm or put his arm around me. I definitely didn't think he paid as much as attention to me as I’m realizing. I still think he doesn't care about me or love me. I still need him to tell me these things.

“You got all that from just right now?”

“Ally, I got that a long time ago. I just never brought it up because it was never brought up in conversation. I know you better than you think.”

“Really now? We'll see about that” I smile and start walking away to go home. I turn around when I hear Jack calling out for me

“Allyson! Your on” He tells me while flashing me his trademark smirk and walks away to his car.

This is who I fell in love with and who I’m still friends with. What was I thinking?

Authors Note: I know, I know I haven't update in such a long time. My friend wouldn't leave me alone about it. First off I want to say I'm so sorry for not updating. I have been having trouble writing this story. I want to apologize for the length. I know its very short but i wanted to put something up, so this what i decided to write. I promise not to make you guys wait a month for the next upload. Please vote, comment and check you my new story Its called A promise to Stay. Have an awesome day/afternoon/night!