Keep Those Green Eyes On Me

Chapter 6 "You are Safe in my Heart"

I definitely don’t love him as much as I used to. I realized that he will always be in my heart; he was the one who taught me so many things. I never thought that I would find love at the age I did. I’m ready to make up with him. He is right, we really don’t know if we will be friends after high school. I don’t want to be fighting with him if this is our last year together. He may be my ex-boyfriend and the guy I am in love with for now, but most importantly he is my friend.

When you avoid someone they always seem a way of finding you. But when you look for them they are nowhere to be found. Come on Jack where are you? I just need you to tell me that we will be friends. I can handle with that. There are so many things that I want to tell you and knowing me I need to tell you them face to face.

“Hey have you seen Jack?” I ask his best friend Cole

“Allyson, Don't do this, he is still pretty upset about your last encounter.”

“Cole I don't want to hurt him, not anymore. I just want to see him so we can make up. I realized a lot and we both are at fault. I, Cole please tell me where he is?”

“OK only because I can see that you aren't going to mess with him anymore.” I want to scream at the top of my lungs that I’m not the only one who has hurt someone in this friendship. This works both ways. Yeah OK I have said things to Jack that I shouldn't have said. He broke my heart, but I put the pieces back together again. “He's at his house. He didn't want to come to school today.”

“Cole Thank you!”

“Allyson?”

“Yeah... Cole”

“I know you may think that he doesn't care about you, but you were his first love, that's a part of him that you will always have. It will always be you. The one special girl that stole his heart and wouldn't let go.”

“I want him to say those things to me. I really hope what you say is true. I can't take anymore heartache from him. My heart won't take it, I won't let him.”

“Just be careful please. He has a heart after all.”

“I promise that I won't ever hurt him again.”

Getting closer to Jacks house I get more and more nervous. I don't know if he will tell me what I've wanted to hear after all these years. I need him to tell me that he loved me because I am certain about one thing and that is that he doesn't love me. Whether he loved me once or not. He doesn't want to be with me anymore. He hasn't for a long time and I am just starting to see that. I want to have closure from him. Just the romantic part. I don't want to stop being his friend and I know he doesn't want that either.

I ring the doorbell not knowing what will greet me once the door opens. Jack opens the door and before I know it he engulfs me in a bone crushing hug.

“Jack... Jack, I can't breathe”

“Oh, my bad Ally I didn't realize.” I look at those green eyes that I have missed so much.

“Ally why are you looking at me like that?”

“You called me Ally. Not Allyson, but Ally.”

“I never like calling you Allyson. It's only when I’m mad at you and I never want to do that again.”

“Well good, because I don't like not talking to you or being mad at you. Can we please go back to the ways things were? Before Bailey, before all this drama? I really can't stand the thought of not being your friend.”

“I want to be friends. I can't stand not being your friend either. I just want to forget everything that has happened in the past few days.”

“Me too.”

Things with Jack have been great. Its been a couple of weeks since we made up and I couldn't be happier. I realized a lot during these past weeks. Jack will always be a player, he will date who he wants to date. But I'm really happy that I’m not his girlfriend. This may sound harsh but he can't be in a honest, serious relationship. He is too much of a child, he doesn't know how to be with someone and not play games with them. I don't know his longest relationship but I do know that his relationships don't last very long. Although I think Bailey may be different. Even though I told Jack that Bailey cheated on him, I won't bring it up again. I don't know what bring something up that will get up into another fight. Bailey or any girl will always be a sore topic for us. Everyday I like him less and less, but he will always have a special place in my heart. I like this routine of him coming to talk to me first. If he sees me he will come up to me and put his arm around my shoulders and then ask for a hug. He won't leave until he gets a hug from me and I’m glad that is all I want from him. It has taken me a long time to sort through all the emotions I had but this is still a work in progress. I'm not going to get over him overnight, I know that. We are both in a good place.

Authors Note: I am very sorry that I haven't uploaded in a while. To be honest i had no idea where this story was going and there were a few times where i wanted to give up and stop writing. But today I talked to my friend who gave me an idea for the direction that this story is headed. So i hope to upload at least once a week. Thank you so much for your patience! Please Vote and Comment.