The One (GirlxGirl) ✔️

33. The Lost

I opened my locker to grab my books and get ready for class. There was a lot on my mind like the Talent Show, Frankie, Heidi and Rick but one thing kept bothering me the most. 

And that was hurting Reese. 

Not one text message or phone call was answered and I don't want to understand but I do. She needs time to take this all in. She didn't deserve to find out like that at all. 

Now I feel like the biggest jackass on the planet. 

I haven't heard from Rick all weekend either which was odd because he was supposed to call to hang out but he never did. Rick never forgot anything either so something must've happened and it had to be something BIG. 

As I was about to close my locker, I dropped my favorite red pen and usually I'd leave it because I'm a lazy potato but it was my favorite so it had to be picked up. I turned around to pick it up and when I got back up, there I saw Reese. 

She didn't have the regular small smile she held everyday she walked through these halls. Instead she wore a frown. What she had on weren't her all black clothing which were a T-shirt dress, black ripped leggings and combat boots with her hair flowing down her back and a beanie that said 'F OFF'. She instead had on a white shirt, grey sweatpants and pink bunny slippers and her hair was in a bun and didn't look brushed at all. 

It was the moment when our eyes locked that I knew that she was truly broken by what I did. It wasn't okay and she was upset. Her hazel eyes held emptiness and betrayal. She tried to smile at me but she failed and she knew I wasn't buying it. 

She hesitated on coming over to me so instead she walked to her locker which just so happened to be next to mine. I didn't even care about my pen anymore as to why I dropped it back onto the floor. As she was going through her stuff into her locker, picking out her Calculus book and notebook for her class, my eyes never left her. 

When she finally closed her locker, her eyes trailed towards the ground and she took a deep breath. I knew I had to say something before she walked away. 

"Reese-" She cut me off before I could finish my sentence.

"It's okay...I'm," She paused and sounded almost breathless. As if what she wants to say was extremely hard to get out. "I'm okay." She finished off and turned around so her back faced me. 

She was gone before I could say anything else. I closed my locker and was just about to go to class until I was met with a furious Rick and his girlfriend who had a hand on his shoulder. 

He didn't look very happy. 

"What's wrong?" I asked Rick. From his face, I could tell I was the reason that he was so angry. Oh god, what did I do now? I keep and keep on messing up and I don't even know how.

He clenched his fists. "You know what's wrong, Nova. You just..." He paused and then lifted his head up so his eyes met with the ceiling and then his eyes met with mine once more. "Why? Why didn't you tell me?" 

"Tell you what?" 

"That you didn't like Reese from the start. And that you wanted to expose her?" He answered with his arms now folded. 

I sighed as realization smacked me in the face. "Listen i can explain-" 

"I don't want to hear it anymore," He cut me off and continued on. "You and Reese, the two people closest to me had secrets that were kept for months. You're supposed to be my best friend." 

"I am!" I told him as I grabbed his hand. "Rick please, I know I didn't tell you but I didn't think it mattered." 

"Best friends don't do this to each other, Nova! They don't hurt each other and that's exactly what you did. Not only did you hurt Reese but you also hurt me," He stated with sad eyes. 

"I'm sorry," I apologized as he snatched his hand away. "That's all I can say, Rick." 

"You know, people think that the secret is what hurts the most but it's really the fact that it's a secret in the first place when it doesn't have to be. But you made that choice for it to be something you can keep away but it can't. It can't Nova." Ri shook his head and walked away with his girlfriend. 

The bell rung after that and students started clearing the hallways but I couldn't move. I stood there frozen and that's when I realized that I officially lost all my friends.

Heidi is disappointed in me and Rick and Reese want nothing to do with me even though they didn't straight up say it. Those three were my only friends and now they're gone.

All because of my mistakes.

If I had just told Rick what I found, he would have confronted Reese and he wouldn't have been as mad but no, my idiot self dragged this secret out for so long and now that they all know, they all hate me. 

I choked out a sob as I fell to the ground. I was never the type of person to cry because I used to be so happy all the time but at this moment, I wasn't happy.

In fact, I haven't been happy since all the drama happened with Reese but in overall, it was Reese who made me happy during those time where I wasn't usual self. She made me feel good about myself and had me laughing at her jokes. She showed me jealousy, pain, tears, and relaxation. 

She showed me that love isn't fairy tale. 

I'm mostly likely not going to trip on something and land into the arms of prince charming nor will I go to some ball and lose a heel then the guy I dance with calls everyone to look for the girl who lost their heel. I most certainly won't kiss a frog and then the frog turns around to be some hunky prince who was turned into a frog by some evil guy. Love isn't all good. 

I then remembered what Rick told me on the first day of school when I was gushing out to him about how I wanted to find 'the one'.

"You always think about what good comes out of love, but have you ever thought about what bad comes out of it?"

I pushed it away but I should've listened because he was right. I experienced love and half of the time of experiencing it, I didn't even know I was. With Heidi, I had amazing time with her and I truly did fall for her but I fell for someone else as well and it was stronger that my love for Heidi. I should've done the right thing and ended it instead of trying to make everything right. Look how that turned out.

The pain, jealousy, and tears led me to where I am right now and that's me being absolutely in love with Reese and now she's heart broken. 

I wiped my tears and got up from the ground. I messed up but now I had to do what Frankie told me to do. 

I had to get her back and I know damn well I'll do everything it takes. 

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Hello mates!

I've decided that I'm going to end this book at chapter at chapter 37 or 38 because I really have to end this book lol. It's taking me forever since school is now back and it's in the way so there might be some new updates in the middle of the week. 

GIF on the side is Cara ;) 

QUESTION OF THE CHAPTER: How do you think Nova is going to get back her friends but most importantly, Reese? 

Sayonara Mates!