Searching For Christian

Chapter 5-Suprise!

I woke up before Christian to get ready and go back to the doctor. I have an appointment with my OB/GYN today to check up on the baby. Thanksgiving was so close it was just 2 days away. I am really nervous, I do not want to go. I am so scared that somehting has happened when I had my panic attack that injured the baby. The doctor at the hospital hadn't said anything about the baby when I was at the hospital. To be honest it had somewhat slipped my mind. I was essentially asleep the whole time I was there. My appointment wasn't until 12 and it was about 8 so I decided to go take a warm bubble bath. I walk into the bathroom and see that there is a folded piece of paper on the mirror. I pull it off and open it to read it.  It was a note from Christian, I begin to read it and start crying. I couldn't believe it. I fall to my knees and start bawling. I couldn't control my sobs. 

"Dear Aby,

When you were left the house I started to wonder, where had you gone. Was this goodbye? Was this the last time I was ever going to see you. I had thought about how sad you were all the time. I couldn't stand it. I called Arrie and told her that I was leaving, I was going to give you some space. I packed all my things and I called my mom to come pick me up. While she was on her way over I got the worst call of my life. I thought I had lost you. Your mom said that on the way to the hospital you had flat lined. You were dead for almost 8 minutes. I was so scared, now words can describe how terrified I was that you were going to be gone. You and Melody-Grace are my life. I couldn't imagine life without the two of you. So I made a vow to myself that no matter what happens to the two of you I am going to stay. I feel so stupid. Leaving is not the option. Arrie was right to yell at me, she told me that if I left you wouldn't know what to do. You looked for me everyday, every minute, and everywhere. I couldn't believe it. Will you please forgive me?"

I immediately ran into the bed room and just kissed him as hard as I could. It scared him. What a wake up call huh. He panicked, he didn't know what was going on. He sat up in bed with his eyes wide with fear. I wrap myself around him, after a little bit he finally wrapped his arms back around me. I assume that he saw the tear-soaked note that I still clutched in my hands that were shaking and sweaty. He sat there and held me until I stopped crying. He was whispering silently in my ear sweet little nothings while I was crying.

"I see you got my note that I left you. I feel so bad that I even considered leaving you! I don't know what was going through my mind!"

"It's ok, I'm just glad you stayed. I have to admit that I when I left I was going to get some space to think. To just be away for a little bit. I felt that you were suffocating me and I was reading you down by leaving early the other night..." I say as I look at my ring, I look back up and smile. It's driving me crazy that I'm all emotional all the time.

We laid back down and held each other forever. I ended up falling asleep and didn't wake up until 10. I panicked. The doctors office is about 30 minutes from her and I still have to get ready! I turned and got up and ready. I was running a little behind and got in a rush so I didn't put any makeup on our straighten my hair. I put my long thick hair up into a bun on the top of my head, slid my hoodie on grabbed my keys,and left.

Christian is older than I am but he doesn't like to drive at all so I tend to do all the driving. Today he drove. It surprised me. I let him for and fell back asleep in the car on the way there. When we got there Christian where me up and we head for the door. I go sign in and we go sit in the waiting room. It felt like we had waited forever.

The nurse finally calls us back. She takes my blood pressure and weight and all that other stuff they do. She takes Christian and I back to a room. I sit down on the examination table and Christian sits in the chair next to the table. The nurse goes over something and then says that the doctor will be in in just a little bit. The nurse leaves the room and closes the door behind her, Christian gets up and walls over to my side and grabs my hand and looks into my eyes. I look into his eyes, his eyes are filled with pain and worry.