I wait fifteen minutes for him in the cold, but then I realized he wasn't coming. My heart broke a little when I heard laughter in the inside, I had behaved like a fool. It was stupid to think he would follow my lead, he is too afraid of what people might say, he likes to pretend he doesn't care but deep down he does.
I walk to a bar, preparing myself to get drunk and maybe forget for a bit that he is engaged. Why is it that we fall in love with people we can't have? It is probably karma for being a bitch years ago. As I drink tequila shots, things start to get blurry and next thing I remember is the floor getting closer to my face and people start getting around me to see if I'm okay, and to be honest, I don't know if I am.
Is it too cliché to get wasted after getting my hopes and heart trashed away, or is it the only logical thing to do? Magnus would've screamed at me if he saw me in this state, but that's in the past...I don't know if he cares anymore.
He doesn't love her, right? She is the time of person we used to avoid, but people change. He deserves better, he can do better. Is it selfish to want him to be with me, even if I am not the best he can do?
I don't know if this is love, I just know that I'm drowning in my pain.
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RandomLove is not a choice. It is the choices you make that depends on who you fall in love with, but it might not always turn out the way you want it to be.... Credits to Andria & Anna.
