Hey guys... I'm taking a big break from wattpad... I won't update for a long time... maybe two months... maybe less. I... just... UGH FUCK!!!
Guys. Question of the day:
How can you tell when you will never be loved?
Answer:
When those you cared about abandon, and mislead you... they fuck with your emotions making you believe that you care for them and they care for you... only to find out later, that you were just a mistake... something they want to get rid of. You feel like shit after learning that they FUCKED with your feelings.. you know that you are a mistake in their lives and no one would ever care for you. You are an outcast. You are like me. You want to torture yourself until you finally are brave enough to take a knife or blade and start creating scars... your emotions flowing through the crimson river in every cut once the current is released. You slowly become numb. You realize you are worthless. You feel exactly like me... worthless, stupid, ridiculous, like shit, a mistake. You lose all meaning to your existence after you know it's coming around again and again. Just like me. It's happened so many times that you can't count. You always say you're done but then you trust again only to have your heart broken. You're broken. I'm broken. And I'm done with it.
