Nightmares (ON HOLD)

Chapter 6 - Your Not Good Enough

Demi's POV 

AHHHHHHHH! I can't I actually did that! 

That is all that was runnig throught my head right now. I was walking home staring at my phone that had Jake's number in it. I can't actually belive that I actually had the courage to do that. When I walked through the front door I was bombarred with hugs from my granparents. 

"There's are little girl" cooed my gram 

"I'm not little anymore gram" I said giving her kiss on her cheek. "Hi gramps, how's it going?" looking to my granfather who had an amused look on his face. 

"Oh, nothing sweetpea. It's just we decied to vist you guys....for I don't know....a month or two" he said giving me a sly smile. 

"REALLY!!" I sequeled before bringing them into a huge bear hug. 

My granparnets are the best, they are really laied back and relaxed. I love them to bits. My gram has has dark brown hair, like me, but with streaks of grey while my granddad I has a bald pat and a comb over. I always used to make fun of him when I was younger, I still do, but this time my gram joins me. 

"So honey, how was school?" ask gram 

I wanted to tell her how I met jake and how amazing he was, and how Kirsty is a bitch and how I put her in her place, I also tell her about how imture and stupid Bryan was but I just settled on telling her this. 

"School was fine, but I got a ton of homework to do. Soooo, I guess I should get started on that" 

"Oh yes, baby girl, don't want you falling behide and ending up like your brother" gram said in distain. She never really like Byran. 

I think it's the fact that her called her uptight bitch and said that she needed to take 'chill pill'. His words not mine. He is the reason why Gram is on anti-depresses. I know, he is that bad. 

"I gonna go get started on that homework now" I said inching toward the stairs. I really wanted to go upstairs and lose myself. 

"Ok, sweetie. I'll call you down for dinner" 

"Okey dokey" I said as I jogged upstairs. 

I walked in to my lilac and black room and chucked my bag down at the foot of my bed, then changed out of my dress into some black sweats and an old band t-shirt. Hopping over to my desk, I grab my headphones and ipod and blasted Mayday Parade's album 'A Lesson In Romantics'. One of my favourtie albums out of 10. 

I went over to my desk and logged onto my laptop and started to write some of my poems. This is what I mean by losing myself, I'm not suicidal or an emo that is aganist everyone. I'm just myself. A skype chat popped onto my screen and as I looked over to see that my cosin, the closes thing I have to a friend, has sent me a call. So I clicked on it and the weirdest thing happen. I saw my cosin making out with a random guy. 

Suddenly, my cosin stop kissing the guy long enough for me see that the guy, she was making out with, was my ex-crush. His name was Billy and I thought that Billy was so cute and was the sweetest guy on earth, then I found out that he sleeps with anything that has anything equvilent to the female antomy. I heard, that when he was drunk he did 'it' with a dog. Gross. That was the end of my crush. The only person I told was Kim, my cosin, and she told not get so worked up about it.. Unbelievable. When she finsh sucking his face, she turn to me and said some thing the shock me completely. 

"So, Demi, do you see that you were never good enough for Billy? and why he only belonged to me. Get that through your thick head you little bit-" 

I shut the computer so fast I think I broke the screen but that didn't matter. I can't belive my cosin did that. The girl who protected me from bullies, who was always there when I need her, who understood my issues and who knew what happen that night. My breathing became erratic, I knew I was on the verge of having another panic attack, suddenly my throat started to close up and black spots danced acroos my vision. Luckly, I had my pills in my desk drawers, so I quickly pulled then out and shakingly popped the pills into my mouth. My breathing slowed down but I could still feel the weight of denail pressing down on my chest. Guess it is time for a new poem. 

After that horrendous event, I checked the time. 7:30 pm. I guess Jake is not going to call, after all and for the first itme in a long time, I cried myself to sleep.

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Hey guys sorry for not updating in ages

This is quite short but i was half asleep.

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