Would It Be Okay If I Took Your Breath Away? [Kevin Skaff]

Chapter 5

Sorry it's been so long since I put up for this story, I'm horrible I know :c

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It's been about a week since, the guys have been here. Which was also one depressing week for me. April has actually been over my house for dinner once this week. It was a rough day for me, watching her cuddle up against Kevin on my couch. Then she tried to feed him popcorn and I know I should be happy for him, but it's so hard when my mind is playing tricks on me. I feel like every time he's with her, he's going to fall more and more in love with her. Whatever happened between us is probably pushed to the back of his mind and he's not even thinking about me. Kevin probably doesn't even care that it bothers me that he's in my house with his arms wrapped around another girl's shoulders. He hasn't even talked to me this past week. I think I'm losing my mind over this guy. I mean this is the same thing that every guy does to me, so why is it effecting me so bad? Do I love... No way.

I sat in my room waiting for everyone to get back from the store. I didn't feel too well today, so I asked Jeremy to get some medicine for me. It's only eleven in the morning and I've probably thrown up about six times. It's not a pleseant sight. I didn't know where I got the sickness from but I know for a fact I'm not getting out of bed today. I'm not going to keep everyone home, so it'll be a lonely day for me today.

I heard the front door open and laughter filled the house. It's times like these where I'm glad my mom pretty much works 24 hours a day. Jeremy came into my room with a bag in his hand. "How are you holding up kiddo?" I covered the bucket I had next to my bed. I was going to dump it out in a little while. "It's not so great in here." Jeremy touched my forehead and opened the bag. "You still have a fever and you look incredibly pale." He pulled out a medicine that was a cherry flavored liquid. "This should help with your fever. Let me get you something to drink before you chug that down." He left the room and I heard some other girl's voice other than Dawn's. "Is she okay?" The girl asked. Please for the love of God, don't let that be April. I don't need her here when I'm sick and in pain.

Jeremy came back into the room with a glass of apple juice and handed it to me. I looked at him as his face had an expression I haven't seen before. "Why do you look paler than me and I'm the sick one?" He shook his head. "You're so much better for Kevin than April is." I chuckled slightly trying not to move so much. "Yeah but she's pretty, and I guess she's cooler than me." Jeremy lifted his hand and flicked me in the forehead. "I highly doubt that." He laughed. "Well, Jeremy, truth is, I have a bad habit of comparing myself to others. There's always someone with a better smile, nicer clothes, a skinnier waist, brighter eyes and amazing hair. That's her and I think she's better for Kevin than me. She's more outgoing than I am, and she's probably a better girlfriend than I would be." Tears started falling down my cheeks. "Charlotte, you are probably the most perfect girl I've seen for Kevin. He just doesn't realize it right now and you're better than any other girl I've seen him date. You don't need him right now. I'm sure there's some other guy out there looking for a girl like you." He wiped the tear that was sitting on my cheek. "Jeremy, most importantly, I'm not the one that has his heart. She is and she's got him wrapped around her finger. Maybe I'm so upset because I don't want to see him get hurt. Maybe I'm looking out for him." Jeremy pulled me into a hug. "Don't worry, you won't have to hurt anymore. I'll be here, Dawn will be here, all of us will be here to help you get through this. You'll be okay, and I bet you'll even find another guy to call yours before you even realize it. You're beautiful enough to get any guys attention."

I pretty much slept the rest of that day. I really needed it since the night before I spent the night throwing up in a toilet. I felt like I threw up all my organs after that. It was probably three in the morning and I had a sudden urge to go outside. It was actually chilly outside, about fifty eight degrees out there. I placed on a hoodie, put my boots on and found my fingerless gloves to wear. I already had on my knee-high rainbow socks on so I don't think I'll be too cold with shorts on. I quietly sneaked my way around the living room towards the front door. I heard a loud snore come from Josh as he turned on the couch, almost falling off.

I finally made it outside and felt something in my hoodie pocket. I forgot this was the hoodie I hid my bad habit in. I promised myself I would never do it ever again but, maybe I could just tonight. I pulled out one life-killing stick from the box. My fingers were a little cold so the lighter was hard to get started. I lit the nicotine filled stick and sucked in. I didn't think it would help much but I felt the stress roll right off my shoulders after that. I started to head out to my backyard but was stopped by someone grabbing my shoulder.

"You really shouldn't smoke these. It's not good for your health." Kevin grabbed the cigarette and stepped on it. That's the first thing he's said to me all week. "I know but it helped a little." I started to walk to my backyard with Kevin following. I haven't really been out here since school started. I pulled off the large sheet that was hanging over my trampoline. I always used to jump on this thing back when my life was normal. I pulled off my boots and jumped onto it. "What are you doing out here? It's like three-thirty." I asked Kevin as I started to jump. "I could ask you the same thing." "You should get some sleep so you could spend the day with your precious April."

"Do you have a problem with her? Charlotte can't you be happy for me? She's really cool and you two could become great friends." I stopped jumping and stared down at him. "No, I can't be happy for you. You kissed me and now you expect me to be friends with her? I'm sure you two have a lot in common, and I know you like her a lot. I can tell, but guess what, I like you a lot too. But you don't care, you can sit with her talking about God knows what and not have a single thought about us. How do you expect me to move on when you kissed me on my birthday? You lead me on, and truthfully, I'm not okay with that." He looked down at his feet. I could tell he didn't know what to say. "Please, please just go back inside. I've felt like shit all day, I don't need to be more depressed than I already am. Kevin, I'm sorry, but I don't want you to be with her. I'm jealous of her and I want to be the one that gets to kiss you under the stars. I'm sorry." He nodded and walked back to the house. I jumped down to my knees and stared crying. Before I knew it, my eyes closed and I fell asleep on the trampoline outside.

In the morning, I pretty much stumbled off the trampoline. I didn't want to go back inside the house to face Kevin. I thought of a place I could stay and I remembered this small garden I found when walking one day. I started to walk when my phone started vibrating. It was Dawn, she was probably wondering where I am. I ignored the phone call and kept walking. Maybe after all this, some peace and quiet will do me good.

Kevin's POV

Did Charlotte really leave? Maybe it was because of everything that happened last night. Kevin, why did you do that? You kissed her then left, why? I was really thinking about everything. April did make me happy, but she was also a really clingy girl. Charlotte was probably the best choice for me. Why did I go with April then? I was really confused about all this. For now, I'm with April and we're fine together. I think it could work out between us.

Charlotte's POV

I sat there in the grass, ignoring all the calls I got and just listening to the silence of the small garden. I had found a new friend at least. It may seem pathetic but at least he wouldn't hurt me. This fuzzy little caterpillar tickled the palm of my hand. He was so calm and peaceful in my hand, like he didn't have a care in the world. Why couldn't I be like this small caterpillar?

For hours and hours, I stayed at that garden. I felt refreshed after all that peaceful silence. I was almost home when I was tackled by someone. "Where the hell were you?!" Dawn yelled sitting on top of me. "No where. I was just trying to become happy, which I did." She shook me as I stayed beneath her. "Never again are you going somewhere without telling us. You scared us all to death." I smiled at her. "Dawn don't worry about me. I'm fine." She smiled back at me. "That's the first time I've seen you smile all week." "I told you, I'm happy."