happily // styles {au}

prologue.

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                Noelle. She was the only thing that was ever important to me. I’m not sure what made me do what I did to her. The guy who has her now is one lucky bastard I can tell you that. If only she knew the things that I would do to hold her one more time.

I wonder if she thinks about all of the things that we went through. I loved when we would lie in bed and she would randomly bring up a stupid little memory that would pop in her mind and she would blurt it out. I miss when her cheeks would heat up when I would bring up what she called our midnight memories. She was always so embarrassed about our relationship between the sheets. It never bothered me though, I liked that she was so conservative about our relationship. I mean who wants other people in their love life?

Now here I sit, just like every other day, thinking about the girl that I let go. I always wonder if she’s happy with her new man. Did I ever make her that happy? Well one thing I know for sure is that I’m not happy anymore. Without her I’m nothing but a worthless piece of shit. 

I wish she would just be with me so we could live happily…