When you have negative thoughts it can sometimes be very hard to get up and do things, so when you have or find that one thing you love doing everyday it's amazing because you can finally just have a break from negative thoughts and just try to build a wall to push those thoughts and feelings away.
Now this thing that I love I've been doing for almost twelve years now. I don't particularly care that I'm not very good at it or that some people join and within a few months they've already surpassed me because I just love joining in and having fun.
However recently these bad thoughts have been slipping in and I feel like I can't even enjoy doing the stuff I love anymore but I don't want to quit because I know I'll never find anything that I can just lose myself in and forget about everything that's going on elsewhere.
