I feel constantly overwhelmed, I'm unable to do anything. I hardly sleep and then I need to wake up early every day, I'm falling asleep in lessons. I'm struggling. I'm drowning in the world and no matter what I do I feel more and more constricted and suffocated.
I'm being stretched in so many directions from the second I get out of bed I don't stop till late at night when my brain goes into overdrive picking out each and every flaw that I did that day, then yesterday's then the week before's.
And I just want it all to stop, I want to stop putting myself through all this crap all day long everyday. I want to be able to just go to sleep and just feel rested.
I don't want vivid nightmares or long exhausting days, I just want to stop.
