Day 21 - Dear Friend

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by itsbrienla

08 September 2008

Dear Friend,

Greetings from your past self!

How are you? I hope you're having fun. I think the next few months wouldn't be easy, partly because you'll have to take on more responsibilities to support your family financially. I know you're still hesitant to pursue acting, not because you wanted to be a pilot, but because the odds of anyone making it in show business has always been a million to one. Still, I think you can at least try your luck in male pageants? Or maybe you can try working as a commercial model while you finish your degree.

I know. I'm trying to stop myself from rolling my eyes and shuddering. Growing up, I know that you never wanted to do any of the things I mentioned. But that no longer matters in the grand scheme of things. What matters is the fact that pursuing acting might be the only way to help your family. As your mother always said, you can do anything if you have faith in God. I think this will still hold true in the future.

Maybe, just maybe, you'd even learn to love it! Wouldn't that be great? Your mom would see you on TV, living her dream and doing something that you actually love. Who knows what might happen right? The big break you might be waiting for is just around the corner.

Are you happy? I know it's a weird question but I am hoping that you'll say yes. I'm not happy right now, you see. I'm still having a hard time accepting that Mom is no longer with us. I miss her. I miss her smile. I miss her jokes. I miss the ways she makes Dad laugh out loud. I miss the way she shows her love to me and my siblings. If there was anyone who I wanted to be with right now, it would be my mom.

Eventually, you will have to find the courage to move on. It's hard to do so right now but I am optimistic that it would be easier in the future. I guess you can try to take comfort in the fact that Mom is in heaven and that she is with God watching over you.

Are you in love? Of course, my dream, aside from helping my family is to have everything my Dad has. Someone who would take the time to listen to me. Someone who, without fail, would try to make me smile. Someone who will respect me and my family despite our humble beginnings. It might be next to impossible so, if you haven't met her yet, pray harder, okay? She might save you someday.

I'm not sure if you'll appreciate this but there's no harm in trying, right? Just don't break your relationship with God. Strengthen your faith because He's the only one, aside from your family, who will never leave you or forsake you. Maybe, if you show Him that you are worth it, you might get something beyond your wildest dreams.

Have faith. You'll get there.

Best,

Richard Faulkerson Jr. (RJ)

P. S. I wonder...will I still call myself RJ years from now? Oh well. I guess I'll find out when the time comes.

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08 September 2008

Dear Friend,

Helloooooooooooo!

This is Menggay from the past!

How are you? Are you having fun? I hope you are! I hope you're at the beach (and not at school), doing whatever you want. I know that might be next to impossible (huhu) because of Nanay, but maybe she'll be more lenient in the future. Yeah, right. Oh well, at least try to spend time with your dogs, okay?

Did you ever get the chance to tell Nanay that you want to be an actress? One who will render the world speechless with her (non-) existent talent and beauty. Yes? No? Okay. I understand. I mean, it's soooooo far-fetched! Ang kapal ko no? Haha! I mean, me as an actress? I can already imagine Coleen rolling on the floor laughing. I just hope makabangon pa siya. Lol.

I can't help but wonder though. Will you find out what it feels like to be in the spotlight? Did you get the chance to see yourself on a billboard (kahit maliit lang) or a magazine? Or will this forever be a dream or a fantasy? *sobs* Ang drama ko. Hindi bagay! Haha.

Wait. Did you ever get the chance to meet your Prince Charming? Iyung magbibigay sa iyo ng saya na tagos na tagos sa buto? Iyung gwapo pero medyo corny? Iyung handa kang samahan sa hanggang sa dulo ng walang hanggan? Sinagad ko na talaga. Libre naman mangarap 'di ba? Haha

Anyway, to tell you honestly, I don't know what else to say. I can go on and on about my hopes and dreams...but you already know that. Can I just give you some advice? I'm sorry, it's absurd but I feel like you would appreciate that more than a letter filled with questions that you might not be able to answer.

Soooooo. First, try really hard to look on the bright side of things. From what I understand, you have to experience stuff (that I have yet to find out) as you grow older. I mean, you're already in the 'world outside school' - you know? Don't complain unless you really have to. Second, don't be afraid to use your voice. Not as a singer, mind you. I mean, voice out your opinions. The world might need to hear it. Third, try to believe in yourself. Maybe that one of the things that you need to do to get to where you want to be.

Wait! I have to go. Nanay is calling me! Noooooo. She found out about my prank. Don't tell Coleen pero ako iyung gumupit ng mga damit niya. Ilang araw na kasi niya akong inaasar. Haha!

With all my love,

Menggay

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