Started With A Deadly Job (Golden Freddy x Reader)

Chapter 41

This chapter can trigger, beware.

Your Pov

Today was awful. Mike said I'm no longer allowed to preform. Everyone pitied me. Mangle...Mangle, looked at me disgusted. What happened you ask? They heard the complaints and rumors about me. That I'm to nice to children. That I touch them to much, when I only hug them. Mangle even saw that I hug them, I don't touch them. Yet she still seems to think that I am now untrustworthy, that I'm gonna be useless now, another nuisance, a mistake to keep. I haven't talked to anyone since, I haven't slept since, I haven't eaten or drank anything. not that you need to, but in human form you get hungry and all that stuff All I do now is sit in a corner and let the awful thoughts cloud my mind. There isn't anything else. I have no friends, I don't have a life, what's the point in trying to do something that they'll just pity me for. Foxy ignores me now. Goldie, I haven't seen him in two days. I suppose he's enjoying himself with the others. Nobody needs me anymore, I'm doubting my existence now. I slowly stand up. It's day now, but I don't care anymore. Walking upstairs in my human form, I walk to the exit across the pizzeria. People gasped, pointed, laughed, but some pitied me like the others. I soon walk outside and take a deep breath. I slowly make my way to the forest I know and love. Maybe that stranger would be there, they did know this would happen. They said they couldn't be trusted, so maybe they could understand my problem a bit better. I climbed up my tree, but I didn't see anyone near me, so I got it out of its hiding place in the tree. Now this part is self-harm, you can skip if you want. I will tell you when it is over. I took the blade and started to carve in my skin. I hadn't realized what I carved until I had finished. It said stupid. I couldn't feel my arm, and I put it back in the tree for safe keeping. I let the blood go where it pleased, as it felt relaxing to watch it flow. I started to feel dizzy and soon blacked out.
Self-harm over

Time Skip

When I woke, I was still in the tree, and the cuts weren't bleeding anymore. It was around midnight, and a part of me wanted to go back to the pizzeria and hope that it was just a dream. Another part wanted me to stay here, in the peaceful forest where no one could hurt me anymore. I decided to try to climb down and walk around town awhile. Yes I was a but disoriented when I reached the ground, but I soon had gotten used to the weight I was walking with. I walked around and soon saw that it was sunrise. I started walking back to my 'home'. I slowly made my way downstairs, forgetting to cover my arms and clean the blood from my clothes. I could feel their stares soften as I walked by them. When I got downstairs, Goldie of course wasn't there. I went to my corner and sat down. I immediately got dizzy again and held my head. After it went away, I saw my old 'friends' standing in front of me, worried. Chica was holding a pizza and soda in her hands, while Freddy had a first aid kit in his. The others sat beside me and apologized for their behavior, yet I wasn't listening. Goldie and Mangle weren't here. They had fixed my arm into bandages, and gave me the food and drink. I didn't want it. I shoved it away from me and put my head back in my arms. I heard whispering and their footsteps going upstairs, probably to preform for the day. I lifted my head and saw they left it. I started to tear up, but didn't take it. I didn't need them, especially their pity. They should see that by now.

Time Skip

Someone was shaking me gently, until I woke. I saw Mangle and Goldie sitting in front of me. Mangle looked happy, so did Goldie. What got them so happy?

"Y/n, come one you gotta get up. We have somewhere to be." Goldie says softly.

"Just leave me here."

"We would never, come on Y/nnnn."

"Go away....you guys already pity me enough."

"Y/n, sweetie.....please?"

"I'm not your 'sweetie' Goldie." Mangle scoffed and left me with Goldie.

"Y/, stop being stubborn and get up."

I put my head back in my arms, but Goldie takes them from my knees. I wince where he grabbed. He looked at the bandages, and started to unwrap them. He looked at me and started to kiss the cuts. Hugging me, he put me in his lap. I tried to get out of his arms, but I couldn't. I didn't have any strength left. I looked at myself, and saw how skinny on had gotten. Now I understand why they had pitied me.

"Y/n...don't do this to yourself, it won't be worth it. Please promise me you won't do it again."

"I can't promise a-anything..."

"Can you tell me why you did it?"

"Why do you want to know?"

"Y/n.."

"Fine....ever since you left and the others started to judge me, these...thoughts, bad thoughts, clouded my mind. I just wanted them to stop, I couldn't control them. The thoughts, they made me lose my appetite, they made me hate myself more. I lost my closest friends, so I couldn't do anything.....does that answer it?"

"....Y/n, I never left you. Everyone was worried. You pushed everyone away. I-....I didn't want to lose you. I love you Y/n...you don't know how much I do. Please Y/n, believe me. I swear on my own grave that we would never do anything to try and hurt you."

"Gol-" I was interrupted by a sob. I hadn't realized I was crying. He held me closer and stroked my hair. When I had calmed a bit, I lifted my head from his shoulder.

"I-I love you t-too, Goldie."

I might add in a bonus chapter, but this is the end of the book. Thank you all for supporting me, you kept me writing this book. No lemons though, they make me uncomfortable XD. I may take a break from wattpad for a month or two though, so please stay safe and find a better book that this one was. I made too many author notes, I probably should've just added them to the end of chapters so they didn't waste your time. Anyways, thank you all and goodbye! <3