The book

Library

     Going to the library became my new thing. Wake up, get dressed, go to the library for a while, go to Andre's, and head home to finish my new books. My mother came to be worried about me I suppose because when I came home one night she told me that I was grounded from my room for that night and was forced to watch a movie until I fell asleep on the couch. Then next morning I had to explain to Simon that my mum wouldn't allow me to go to my room to read at all. She told me I had to leave my bag in the kitchen and wasn't allowed to touch it until after bonding time. She wanted me to go fishing with my step father but I know he doesn't like me so I reclined her offer, which of course she didn't accept until Bill said that it was just him and the guys this weekend. Thank you Bill! 

      I'll admit being around Simon so much had me group some sort of strange liking to him. I suppose you could say I have feelings for the Brown eyed boy. Not that it would go anywhere with what I learned the other day. See Simon had been acting weird the last week we had hung out and I tried not to think much of it until I realized why. He was in love. However the hurtful part was that it was with someone else. "Simon you've been leaving the library more early than usual. What's up? Is your mum sick?" He shook his head and I could see blush dusted his cheeks "Actually....Well.... Do you hate gay people?" The question kind of made me giggle "What?" He demanded "Well. If I did I would be hating myself." I say I knew I had to come out to him at some point but I never wanted to be the one to bring it up. 

      It was funny to hear his sigh of relief "Thank goodness." he breathed "I'm seeing someone and his name is Raymond." he blushed a bit more than before. The color had drained from my face and I made it though the entire conversation of how they met and the cute dates they go on. It struck me odd that Simon seemed to be the bottom of the relationship, I took him as a top. Maybe he's a switch? I didn't care to stay long because of how weird this feeling I was experiencing. I later learned that I was jealous and that I had a slight thing for Simon. He's gay, I'm gay, he's dating someone, I'm not... you know how this kind of song and dance goes, however....

      Like the awesome actor I suck at being I sucked it up and decided I still wanted to hang out with him. Though it took me a couple day to get over the fact he has a boyfriend and that I had a thing for him. I didn't go to the library for a whole week and when I finally went back I was tackled to the ground in a hug "NYX" the voice of the person shouted, of course it was Simon. "Hello there Simon" I say after being on the ground for a while. He lifted his head and looked into my eyes "Where were you? I missed you!" I felt guilty for a second "I was busy, and slightly sick." he rolled his eyes and glared "You know I don't get sick. You should have came anyway but I'll accept your excuse for now" he got up off me and tugged me to our usual spot.

     At the bean bags, instead of it being empty of people, it had one person there. He seemed a couple years older than me and he just felt... wrong. I knew why just after I saw him because Simon tackled him. "Nyx Nyx! This is Ray. My boyfriend!" I could literally physically feel my heart breaking when he kissed Raymond. The worst feeling in the world is when you know you have fallen for someone and realized it.... and see them with someone else. 

     I sat down at a table next to the bean bags instead of next to Simon, which was my usual. I had to change a lot of things that I used to do. "Why aren't you sitting next to me?" Simon looked hurt but he was cuddling Raymond, so I guess he's fine. "Sick" I say, if we were texting I would answer with one word texts or just not respond, I guess I was feeling pretty monotone at that moment, maybe even a little depressed. "You know I don't get sick" He pouted and nuzzled Raymond "Ray, you should read this book to me~" I felt sick for real this time "I'm going to go to Andre's for tea. See you." I stood up and fell down once again. I looked back to see Simon holding on to my leg "Please don't go" he actually had tears in his eyes. I accidentally glanced at Raymond and back at Simon. "Is it Ray? Do you not like him?" I shake my head "Even if it was him it's not like you would tell him to leave." I say cross with myself for even saying it. However i I hated Simon even more for not denying it. 

     I went to get up again when I was weighed down by Simon "At least give me your phone number!" He made sure for me to notice he wasn't going to let go until I did. So I did. "Here" I say putting my number in his phone "I have to go now, Andre is expecting me." I left without saying another word. I seriously really hate Raymond, like really! I dunno, he just waltzes up and BAM my man's gone! I can tell that Raymond wasn't even serious. My phone vibrated as soon as the library door closed Miss you already! I slightly smile and text back I haven't even left the front of the building. Dork. I smile fully now when I get a reply, I know but I'm used to seeing you a lot more now. He sent a pouting emoji. 

     I decided to text Andre that I wasn't going to come over and I decided to go out. I got a message on Facebook from an old school friend Come to a party at Josh's, it'll more fun than reading~ . She was probably right at this moment. The last thing I want to do right now is read a book. I got ready at home and soon left the house. I'll be perfectly honest I had no idea that Simon lived anywhere near me. It turns out he lives two blocks away. I know that because he was coming out of his house as I was walking back. "Simon!" It was an accident to squeak his name but that happened. "Nyx!" He tackled me to the ground "Hi"I breathed "Hi" he did the same and got up quickly "You look nice" he commented on my blazer and tie. I looked at my outfit and ran my hand through my hair "yeah, I'm going to a party." I blushed a little, Usually at this time I'd be sitting in my room reading a book and thinking about Simon. "Can I come?" 

      "What made you decide to go to a party instead of reading?" Simon asked some questions on the way to the party, we were walking since my friend's house wasn't that far from where I lived. "An old friend texted me and told me to be social." I said shoving my hands in my pockets "I'm not a very social person to be perfectly honest" Simon said blushing. It made me laugh because I already knew "I know you're not" I said, still laughing a little "How do you know?" He asked, seemingly very innocent, it made me blush. "Because you were always alone when I came into the library, and then I started talking to you but it seemed like you only talked to me" he smiled "And Raymond" my smile vanished "And him" I say and continue walking. 

     As soon as I walked into the party everyone noticed me "Nyx!" Emily, my ex girlfriend who seems to think I'm very straight hugged and kissed my cheek "Hey baby" she purred like a gorilla, my worst mistake to be honest. "I'm not your baby" I playfully snarled "You'll always be my baby~" she was really trying to be sexy but it just wasn't working for me "You know I'm gay Em" I said glancing at a red faced Simon. Jealousy? "You only say you're gay but I know you want me" she got off of me and stepped away. I grabbed Simon's hand and pulled him close, placing my hand on his small waist and pulling him up right against me, kissing his neck a little "I'm sure my boyfriend wouldn't like that" I smirk at the stuttering disgusted female. Emily starts to run away so I yell "Back bitch, back!"