I wrote this piece for a speech to give in CLT (Communication Leadership Training 2016) entitled as "You are Amazing."
Well, of course, i wasn't successful enough to feel proud; stage freight, mind blocked, over thinking, & not confident. I wanted...
My Heart's POV "Dub,dub,dub,dub,dub,dub,DUB DUB DUB DUB DUB DUB DUB" (faster and faster)
*walks on the stage with 2 inch heels*
My mind's POV "Omg, so many people ( but there were only 20) how can I do this, omg my dress, omg my hair, omg, omg ,omg, teachers, parents, SH(senior high) students."
*feels cold* *self-conscious all of a sudden*
It has been minutes I haven't spoken, with all those eyes staring at me. This is my first time, facing many people, wearing a short dress (with leggings) and braided hairs which I wasn't comfortable with because I didn't look good but my friends kept on telling it suits me ( I didn't believe it of course), so I continued with it and stayed positive. "Stay calm" "stay calm", I kept on telling myself and I finally spoke.
My speech POV "Can I say this, that you are all amazing? To me, to everyone, without mentioning it everyday?" ----------------------------------------------------------- *forgets the second line* "Ah, ah, umm."
*looks at my friend, holding the script-like sheet*
She says " its 'Don't' " "Ahhhhh, yes yes, Don't blame anyone for your happiness and success and at the same time, you cannot blame them." The second I realized, i mentioned 'blame' two times.
*face palm*
"Oh no!"
*forgets the third line again*
The people looking at me, it is so scary that I didn't know what to do. It is not like they will eat me or something but my shaking hands and lips were making it worse. I thought to my self "run, run,run, turn back, you are shameless, look how the-people-who-expected-from-you are staring at you" "YOU ARE NO GOOD!"
My mind kept on running from here to there, not going to any point near my speech.
*deep sigh*
I mumbled all the words that didn't even make any sense until the light turned red, meaning that I have reached the time limit, which was 5 minutes. I got more intense and I kept on talking, thinking I'd do better. I couldn't stop because there wasn't a good ending. I continued talking with no meaning AT ALL, for 22 seconds more until I ended it with a 'Thank You.'
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I felt TOTALLY embarrassed. What have I done? And why? Oh no! Oh no! Oh no! I thought I prepared...... *not moving* *continues staring at the floor* *empty mind* Can't believe what I did, HORRIBLE!
