Stuff in MY life!!

Rant #1

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Is it bad that I trust my friends more than I do my own parents? Is it bad that I have to hide my true self from my parents. Is it bad that I've tried cutting before? 

I have to many questions running through my head!! I'm terrified that I have mental depression because people in my family on both sides have had it and killed themselves. 

I've took glass against my skin before. I have watched it bleed onto my arm. I'm scared of myself. I don't know who or what I can trust anymore. Of course I can trust my friends but I meant family wise. 

I've talked to my mom about it and she recommended talking to the school counsellor or a therapist but just talking about that makes me feel insane! 

I'm terrified! 

I don't know what to do. I promise to keep updating my books and so but I'm just... I don't know. 

Thanks for listening to this rant. Love Ya! 

-MC