Dont say goodbye

5-should i have friends?

The next day was normal and arif kept texting me after school.

Atif:hi,mia....i talked to my parents about the sports thing.....they said they were sorry because the didn't focus more on my studies or helped me with my studies....so they said their gonna focus on my studies.

Me:owh!thats good news.

Ariff:yeah

And we talked more about school.Then,he talked about sports.

Arif:mia,you should try to run when sport practice on friday.....

Me:oh...i cant

Arif:why not?

I didn't wanna tell him about my sickness so i just lied to him.

Me:ummm...because i cant run fast..

Arif:owh

Me: ok...bye and goodnight.

Arif:bye see you next week.

then i slept....then i started sleeping,i couldn't breath.

I couldn't breath and mum heard me screamed.She and dad ran into my room and dad carried me and put me in the car.

Mum took my inhaler and i used it but it gave me a little air...only a little.

When we reached he rushed through the emergency room and dad put me on the bed while mum started crying...

Dad wiped his tears and hugged mum while i was doing an operation to check whats wrong with my lungs now.....

At 12 in the morning....i finished my operatiom and dad said i could rest amd didn't have to go to school.

(Mum)
Hi...sweety.....

(Me)
Hi mum....ouch my back hurts...

(Dad)
You should rest....why dont you rest and when you wake up,we will bring food for you.

(Me)
Sure but...dont you guys have to rest too?

(Mum)
Dont worry about us okay....we can sleep here...dont worry

(Me)
Okay....goodnight mum and dad.

(Dad)
Goodnight.

when i was sleeping,i dreamt about me not having the cancer pain.I was running at a field with mum and dad and my friends.It was nice and i felt free from cancer.But when i woke up,the last thing i remembered about dreaming was talking to arif....telling him that i was free from the cancer and he was happy to hear it....but someone woke me up.

(Mum)
Hi....someone came to see you

(Me)
Who is it?

(Mum)
Hannah

(Me)
Really?okay

(Mum)
Come in hannah.

(Hannah)
Hi mia....how are you?

(Me)
Hi....im fine.How did you know im in the hospital?

(Hannah)
Well.....i was having an appoinment with doctor lina....i saw the emergency list and saw your name so i rushed to see ur mum.

(Me)
Oh....this is bad....

(Hannah)
Dont worry stay strong and fill your life with happiness.

(Me)
Okay...i'll try.

After a few day i was discharged from the hospital....and it was february...so i guess im ready to do this....i just need to wait and wait until i die.